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2007-05-30T23:16:00.001+08:00

2007-03-08T21:52:00.001+08:00

im moving on. i am- moving on. i hope

2007-03-06T09:37:00.000+08:00

i don't know. i know im feeling quite sad. sad inside. i never knew that eating chocs can be such an emo thing felt with so much sadness and memories. my kinder surprise =) supposed to have 5 but im contented with 3. why do i have such rocking friends in vj which makes leaving nothing but sadness.

well something emo yesterday, i asked, " are you sad cause you are leaving?" the reply was "no cause i've already known you guys."

throughout these 2months and 1 week in vj, really enjoyable la. sad as it is, still gotta move on right. i really crosses fingers pray hard that my appeal is a success but i dont see how it could be =(

im gg to bathe, to vj and to class outing. chill out there everyone.

2007-02-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

wellx, all that crap about me trying not to be so attached to vj is going no where. it's like my initial poly plans burst already? why the hell did i screw my o levels. i didnt screw that bad la but why make all my 1s become 2s.

im really starting to like my class already. its like so many ppl did small little things which really made my day. that act of kindness really rocks. love is the spirit of giving. felt that v day really rocks this year. its like im really surprised and shocked at many people la. gang rocks. highlight of the day: "im humble" and "i know your ******" okay crap. gang rocks. gang make me love my class even more. gang make me not wanna leave vj.

cmon cmon cmon. let me stay. let everyone stay. cmon cmon.

2007-02-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

2007-02-10T17:10:00.000+08:00

damn- actually the fact is im still abit emo over everything la and kinda heard something last night which left me at a loss of what to do and wellx. emo-ing is over x) - ihope -

most people did well for their O's well many people that i know of actually. the fact is i m glad that my higher chinese and english turned out better den expected and im so glad for my combined humans! after a year of mugging in sec4 ONLY for combined humans i finally secured my a1 for it xD

pissed off with my sciences. pissed pissed pissed pissed- i hate practicals. must be the practicals la. haish i wonder when will i face reality and stop complaining over my results. but wellx. what can i do?

i know it sounds stupid. im gonna apply for both jc and poly courses. yes slap me-

2007-02-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

you know i really cant describe my emotions now. i can't put it in words.
its kinda like a whirl right now with different options spinning in front of me.

2007-01-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

l ol. i dont know if this is a good or bad thing. my comp cannot support games. like sims2, maple and warcraft. WHY? i can either reformat my comp, or try screwing my processor properly but all these involves risk that my comp can never be on ever again. should i?

risks risks risks.

i dont know if im lucky. my cousin just saw dadong ! l ol. why cant the person be me. raaaah.

hope im going tmr. ppl, please stop pangseh-ing me alright and guess what, SINGAPORE WIN.. ahahah.

actually, i still dont know when den i will get serious on my work, you know i havent spend a night in my room doing homework yet. so far all my tutorials are done beside the computer. . i know im very slack la, but i dont know wad to do about it.

i miss working actually, but i think its really too tired to handle it with sch. but the worse thing is when i dont work i go out and spend money. oh oh oh. wellx.

something very paiseh happen to me during school on a day called tuesday and i feel totally horrible over the incident.

wellx. good to forget. moving on.

till then~

2007-01-18T20:19:00.000+08:00

wellx. actually it's abit hard to enjoy life in vj when everything i think of is getting kicked out =( i have absolute 0% confidence. and best more. they say the results tentatively on v-day. wad rubbish. not as if i got date la but actually i dont really care about v-day la. but its like less den a month away? im not prepared yet!!

ha. i know the whole world is telling me to relax and dont think so much. but the stupid thing is it keep bothering me lah. wad if the worst happen. i dont like changes alright.

okay i enjoy playing frisbee with my class. okay maybe half my class. l ol. wellx.

tmr will be a fun day because i say so!

okay im lazy to go on. ta

2007-01-11T15:42:00.000+08:00

okay im just trying my luck to see if blogger allows me to post. apparently i typed 2 previous post before but it couldnt be uploaded and i got pissed so i just closed the window without saving whatever i typed. raah.

apparently i just got my salary for the 2 weeks i've worked in december.. its actually not alot but im so happy since i actually earned my own money.. its like the sense of accomplishment you know..

hmm. vj is fun to the extent that im worried about my o level results alrd.

wellx. what if frisbee dowan me.. someone tell me man. before i become CCA- less.

okay till then. im lazy.

rameses rawk. i miss OG.

2006-12-30T00:16:00.000+08:00

hi there. never really knew work can be so tiring.. everyday come home. go online lil while. sleep. wake up eat breakfast. go for work. break. work agn. till late night den come home den sleep. life.. is just THAT boring. cant imagine how life would be in the future? raaah.

hmmm. seriously its really quite boring lah. other den the occasional cold jokes here and there. but some customers would really make the day.. like table 7. LOL. for dinner time. and stupid table 1 who CLAIMED that they didnt order the food when they were too full. WHAT RUBBISH LA. but sadly to say, in service line, customers are always right.. so. blah.

im sad to say that i still cant control my temper.. i mean when im pissed off. i dont say it out but i can be seen on my face.. that BAD.

anyway quite cool la. work 1 week can get pay RISE. and work 1 week den not TRAINEE le. so COOL la.stylo name tag nia. but hope wont tio any customers complain.. cause.. when im tired.. i do the darnest things. LOL.

now business improving too quickly.. this week is like MAD RUSH lah. mad mad mad.

but actually, it gives u a sense of accomplishment at the end of the day while you are eating the left over food.. and.. the food always taste GOOD. raah. but every night eat supper.. not good for health i know.. but no choice wad. lo l.

also, must take injection soon against dnt know wad crap disease lah. raah. 19.90$. and i have no money tmr. because payday is next month. raah.

till then. dadong, kangta, torres, edison, jay. MERRY CHRISTMAS and a happy new year..

yay can see JJ LIN XDD

2006-12-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

now work gonna be so sian.. today was like freaking tired and hello, its xmas eve.. hmm. other den the xmas songs i hear everyday.

wellx. if this goes on i DONT feel like working when sch starts le. l ol. i shall AP and walk out. now left so little people.. wellx. sad sad sad sad sad sad sad.

its xmas and im feeling sad.

hello. can u go watch? i wanna pengz out of it le. hee.

2006-12-21T23:54:00.000+08:00

wellx. no idea why i feel like typing crap today.

back from china and north vietnam. now currently working. if u wanna know what and where. den ask me. if not forget it.

now most of the days come home late. actually also good lah. so i wont have to decide wad to do everyday. haish. but the biggest sacrifice is still my tv. my yu le bai fen bai, kuai le yu and 9pm show daily. and now my weekends are gone too..and my xmas eve night dinner is gone too. wellx. actually im feeling quite sad that school is starting. i rather work. LOL. although its so tiring but once u learn to enjoy it it is a different thing. but im still learning to enjoy it. so far its okay. the working world really opens up ur exposure to the rest of the world. im learning to adapt currently and im glad that im given this chance to do so yea.

and now, im beginning to see things at a different perspective.. wellx. there are always two sides to a coin..

and there is really more to life.

2006-12-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

testing

2006-12-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

raah. jiro wang dong cheng (DADONG) is my new craze. but, he will die down. because he is too much of an eye-candy.. raaah. u know. he smiles in every picture.

l ol.. im speechless to talk..

im lazy to blog about prom la. since everyone is blogging about it. no point reading it all over again right. aha. and im still waiting for MORE photos. everyone send me everything before my comp crash.

actually i think fei lun hai is better off to go slol leh.. u see. each individual person already got so wide fan base. just go solo man. maybe they will sing better..

ahahah. dadong. whynot call dong dong.

raah. i dont know wad to say le.

2006-12-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

i have to admit.
i miss school.
i miss waking up at 6am every morning. and lazing in bed.
den i'll brush my teeth and blahs.
den by 6.30 i'll be reading the papers and eating breakfast.
aniway, just one random fact of me.
i read the classified. okay laugh.
i miss going to class early and sweeping the floor.
i miss sleeping on the class table.
i miss walking around the school when it is dark.
i want to have another camp in school!

i miss sleeping during lesson time.
i miss deco-ing the notice board.
funny it seems.
how i actually thinked i could enjoy secondary 4 life.
i miss the window beside my table.

oh man.
my blog is so emo.ha. but not in a mood for it.
life is boring.
i went out every single day ever since o levels ended except last sunday.
i think i stayed at home and watch vcd.
l ol.

now im reading deathnote.bought bk3 on friday.
bought bk4 today.feel like buying bk5 tmr.
see got fate at pasiris comics connection anot.
if got den buy.

got the earring i have been searching high and low for.
the rainie yang de devil beside you earring.
bought the clearstar one. it was $4.90.
l ol. online is selling like.. dowan say. aha.
and bought a $8 shirt at this sale outside seiyu.

so u can calculate how much i spent today.
im going for a flopped up chalet tmr.
dont know why im there for.
cai min you cd was so tempting at $7.

but. i was really quite broke lah.
still looking for a notebook with scheduler.
feel like planning for next year already.

to all mtK peeps: jiayou x)

to the rest. i would go overseas. so.. if im gone.. den.. ya.

因为我在等待永远-

2006-11-27T21:34:00.000+08:00

crosses my finger that this is posted. wellx. so many things have happened and i shall start.1. O levels is finally completed and let's see. it has only been EIGHT days. l ol. i screwed up my O's and let's just keep an end to it and await the screwed up results. hee xD2. i've started watching the show called MAGIC TOUCH OF FATE by kangta, rubylin, alex su. the show is quite cool but the ending is.. hMmm. if you want to watch ask me bah. got quite a few magic stuffs lah so quite exciting to watch. i've finish it already though. and rmb its KANGTA xDD3. i went out shopping like let's see, friday went pway, sat went queensway, people's park and plaza singapura. sunday went orchard. monday went vivo. tues went TM. today went junction 8. l ol.4. CHALETS. tuesday to wed night i was at 4H chalet. talk about it later. thurs to friday was at guides farewell. it was very fantastic ! great planning and THANKS juniors !5. now i completing the magicians of love (aiqingmofashi) by 183 and half of sweety.okay now i shall start at 4H chalet since it sounds so exciting. first day nothing much lah. i think i was in the pool den later in the sun for some time but sighs. im still not tanned.den i bargained with the person to reduce the majong rental from 25$ a day to $35 for 2 days. but in the end i followed jied home to her house with songhan to take the big majong set. den later we miss the bus den later i went to buy drinks den later blah blah blah. ended up at chalet and missed the first part of the last epi of goong. but at least there was food left for us ! x) and den move on to the next pissing part. someone promised to stay to play majong while the rest went to watch the movie but that person pangseh while i went to bathe lah. den ended up left me, jingru, songhan playing 3 ppl majong and watching tv from 7 to 11pm until they came home. the sad thing was there wasnt much food in the chalet. =( okay so they were back den the majong continue den at i forgot wad time went out to talk and listen music den later watch soccer match den the match quite pissing. so lil shots on goal and. raah. so in the end 5+ went out with some peeps and ended up at the beach where we couldnt find where the sun rise. den later we walk walk walk until some rocky parts to sit down. den later we walk until outside the chalet gate and i slept while waiting for the door to open. den later door open we all went back in den dey still playing majong. LOL. den later went to sleep. think was me ween lala and jo on the bed. not sure where the rest one. den guess wad we ALL woke up cause of ween's weird dream. 3 PUCK PLAY! WAHWAHWHAHAWHAW. den later i JUMPED out of bed again ! it's like u know me. suddenly stood up and den. OH NO! cause i forget to check for chisten if xz was sick. den vv stupid i went out and i forgot wad i did. den later went back to sleep lil while den woke up again. den went out and GUESS WHAT. songleng bot breakfast ! but apparently there are other reasons which are not worth mentioning.. ha. den ate HALF a burger and drank COKE. den later dilly dally den chiong for bus den miss den later dont know why end up walking to downtown east den later ended up at escape. okay. HOW LONG MY DAY WAS.okay escape is only 6$ and there's free popcorn and ice cream and game. so the first ride was the dizzy thing. den later went for the water thing which the crazy kids keep spraying us den was all wet. den went for VIKING where we didnt know when to scream. so we screamed while moving up and while moving down. l ol. den went for the rainbow thing where i screamed for the shuang-ness. den later went for wet and wild. den later got very wet den went to play those stupid games den later went out and walked back to chalet and guess what. we realised that it was not even 2pm. LOL. den later went back rest a while den out in the pool again. den it rained. den later went back to chalet was wet. den i bathe den later i forgot wad i do den i ended up by the bbq pit trying to set up the fire. okay. after 2 hours of hard work the fire was finally big and usable and WHEE! food was on its way ! can u imagine, actually a successful fire but must thank my disciples ! jkjk ! obviously is ME and the others lah. den later i ended up playing majong and eating alot of good food and den later i went back home cause my mum insisted on fetching and ended up my bro was the driver. l ol. den later went home pia farewell present den next morning wake up pia present and pack den.next day ended up at whitesands. buy stuffs den go the chalet den the farewell was really fab ! can see they put it alot of effort for it. ha. actually i lazy to blog about it cause prolly everyone else did. lol. but really thanks to everyone who made it possible. it was very fun and enjoyable. den after left chalet walk to downtown east and played arcade. sighs. i solo only 77pts. quite lousy? hMms. den later went to eat den went to mx house den ended up sleeping there. den later went home lorx. den use comp and sleep den today went out again. l ol. that's my life after O's.

2006-10-07T23:36:00.001+08:00

the haze is killing me ! but im super tempted to type an entry after friday's tuition class when i see kids celebrating lantern festival at the HDB park and everything.

Dedicated to the 1990 BABIES of my time x)

(1) you would most probably attended PAP kindergarten. well i guess at least 70%?
ha i didnt. i attended bethesda chapel. anyone same as me?

(2)you would prolly be crazy over digimons, tamagotchi, pokemon.
digimons used to cost $10 each.

(3)you remember watching teletubbies when you were in primary school.

(4)sesame street was part of your life and you will always remember big bird, elmo, cookie monster.

(5)getting 291/300 in primary one is not impossible.

(6)you probably grow up with good experience of lantern festival, christmas, .. with your cousins.
i recall the year my rooster lantern became roasted rooster. piangz. put my lantern down to play swing and when i come back. the wind blow. lantern fall. wooh. wind blow. catch fire.
and, we used to build a fire every time we went to the park, depending on whose house we would be at that day. and the fire will blaze up and we will start joking if anyone would call the fireman. lol.

(7)in primary school, recess always play catching, and the coconut trees were "home".

(8)there were hand games like "ping-pong", "vampire-vampire-vampire-ceh", "sisi my baby..", "mi mi mi rei mi fa so mi.."

(9)there was a massive autograph book writing trend in p4-p5. i think i owned at least 4 to 5. and of course, each of my friends wrote multiple entries for each other. w00t.

(10)in class. "what are you doing?" "oh! im passing message!"
its the way you communicate in class without talking. l ol.

(11)you probably be caught in the craze of taking neoprints at some point of time.

(12)neopets was a mega craze then xD maybe still now.

(13)MSN was the next craze. IRC for some.

(14)you could probably spend your evening in parks near your house where you will play games like "blind man", "catching" or "obstacle course" we strangers you totally dont know at all and you will just leave without even knowing their names after playing the whole evening.

(15)when you were in kindergarten, you remember attending birthday parties where you played lame games like musical chairs. l ol.

(16)you remember watching POWER RANGERS.

(17)you remember something called SEGA. ooo. i played motor kombat 3 lastime. with sonic.

(18)the gameboy trend began when you were around primary 4. where everyone "mugged" to catch all 150 pokemons and i had no cable then.
those were the days of red, blue and green version. yellow came out on a later date.

(19)and im sure how u do love the show, huan zhu ge ge.

(20)yoyo was a trend, but it lasted only a short while.

(21)colouring books could last you the whole saturday night. and at 9pm, you will tune in to, "gan gan zuo ge kai xin ren" on channel 8.

(22)you remember your teacher making you to hold hands while walking up the stairs. and then there was the (holding water bottle) cause you just refused to hold the other person's hand.

(23)you went crazy over boybands like backstreet boys, a1, boyzone.

(24)and you remember those dumb PE games you had to play during sports day..

2006-10-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

2006-09-30T00:19:00.000+08:00

01. Facade (Presona)
translation by: Jungie (also credit: aheeyah.com)

Because my throat bruned, my tears fell, because
everything infront of me blurred and because I couldn't walk
I must not have been able to even call enough strength to
hold onto you, who's getting farther away.
Not being able to make you laugh at least once, with my
heart that's ripped and broken and already withered away
and useless, is my crazy attachment.

Don't turn to look at me, Don't turn around.
Just run away as you are and forget me.
Farther, a little farther, run away farther away from me.
It's good that you've left me who's so bad, so unworthy, so foolish.
Don't have any memories don't even remember me.
Even if you're so lonely you think you might die.

The words, "be well" and "i'm sorry"
if you're wanting to leave me
than instead just kill me right here and go.
Without you, day by day I'll die away.
But you know, you know enough that it's already too late to go back.
What about me who's become so much like you.
How in the world? Why are you trying to leave me? Why?

2006-09-29T23:54:00.000+08:00

Just some meaningful lyrics i saw somewhere..

Title is Because of you. by. potato xD

Haven't seen you in a long time, And yet we still feel awkward.
. . . . . . .

Bridge: And now i know, the only thing that remains unchanged, is my love for you.
It has been so long since, I finally get to see you today.

. . . . . . .

How i wished time could stay still at this moment.
Even if i met you conincidentally, It's been so long.
My heart will be satisfied, can i still love you, please for a day at least.

ha. i know the lyrics abit wrong. cause this is according to kind translators.. yea. anyway, he self composed himself.. just for a variety show. want to hear go youtube type xman episode 130 part 4. wellx, talented ain't it? hees.

2006-09-25T19:53:00.000+08:00

actually didnt feel like blogging. cause if i blog i will only blog about KANGTA. okay, so who is he? hmm. some background information yea. his name is 安七炫. Ahn Chil Hyun. so yea. i also dont know where kangta come out from la. some details about him,

(1) 10 october 1979 - that makes him 27 this year. okay i know its rather old.
(2) he was from this band called HOT. lead singer. anyway, he chu1 dao4 10 years le. clap clap !
(3) he has 3 music SOLO albums, POLARIS(2001), PINE TREE(2002) and PERSONA(2005). anyone know the meaning of it? lol.
(4) he act two drama, one called Magic Touch of Fate, and the other is Loveholic.
(5) he has a nice voice, really.

ha. and i dont know why. i think that vaness makes kangta look gay. lol. and apparent;y, LOL. KANGTA HAS MORE FANS DEN VANESS. whaha. the sad thing is that there are lyke conflicts between the fans. so commical. but actually if not for they two together i would never know who the hell is kangta. but i realised if it weren't for them i think i will still have chance to watch the drama he act and like him.. lol.

okay. yesterday one review of the show loveholic is SUPER SUPER funny i tell you. its like the person say kangta's acting so rawk. everytime his eyes looked as if he was going to kiss the girl and its like so intense and and and and. the director just refused to make him kiss. LOL. maybe he don't dare! ahah. okay craps.

the 2nd impression he give me is the shy shy type of character. den he doesnt need to act cool. he IS cool. and you know its like his eyes can speak. through his eyes you will know if he is sad, happy, he just *shocks* okay. reallllllllllllllllly. a pity that he is already 27 years old..

think alot of ppl say he look like girl. but its like is called good looking guys. lol. he is just *charming* ahahah. okay. his voice is really really nice =) go check out 127days by kangta and vaness. from this two men band right. its like making it so obvious that kangta sings very well x))

okay. moving on to my next idol. GO BUY JAY CHOU ALBUM IF U HAVE NOT (ORIGINAL)!
i heard radio. super happy. they say for the CD sales right. for every 2 people that buy album, one person is buying JAY ALBUM ! it is really a worthy buy !

okay. next up is fernando torres. he gotten a red card. i wonder why. wellx. hmmmm. /

okay, next. edison chen is starring in a movie called THE GRUDGE 2 ! check it out. although i think it will be realeased in sg quite late la.

hmms. dont ask about PRELIMS. its OVER and im HAPPY !

okay bye.

2006-09-24T18:34:00.000+08:00

testing x)

2006-09-22T18:37:00.000+08:00

Give My Love lyrics

Artist - Save the Last Dance soundtrack

Album - Save the Last Dance

Lyrics - Give My Love

When I look in your eyes I can see that you
Want to be with me but you're so scared
And I don't know what to say or do
But the tears keep falling from your eyes
And I know that
Times won't change my love
And I can't do nothing to keep you

Oh, I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night

As the hours pass away
You think that love ain't here to stay
Feel a beat from your chest
But you don't give doubt a moment's rest
You dream the future and all you see is dark
Listen to your heart, baby, the truth will set sparks

Now I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night

Now I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that time won't change my love
Take my love all through the night

I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love, through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night

2006-08-31T19:09:00.000+08:00

SUDDENLY I HAVE A STRONG MOTIVATION TO DO MY VERY BEST FOR PRELIMS !

lol. THANKS X)

2006-08-26T01:10:00.001+08:00

okay. there are so many things i wanna say.

one. I THINK KYLE IS SO SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET.
maybe i shld have gone for the concert but wellx i wasnt free? sighs.

two. I THINK JAY CHOU RAWKS X) go hear his new song ! he is so versatile. can sing everything ! can't wait for his album to be out. september EIGHT i think ! everyone go PRE ORDER !! it's definitely gonna be a FAB buy alright ;)

three. I THINK KANGTA LOOKS GOOD. im still considering whether to buy their album but its lyke. there are 4 songs and in two different languages and with one song in three languages. so end up u pay $20 for 5 songs. HMMMS. im still thinking. maybe buy the china version? wellx.
KANGTA !! omgosh omgosh. ahhhhhh. going crazy soon ')

four. MANCHESTER UNITED IS THE TOP IN THE TABLE OWNNING TWO MATCHES SO FAR.
man utd vs fulham. 5(saha, rooney(2), ronaldo, o.g.)-1
charlton vs man utd. (3-0) flat.
and you get that message?
MANCHESTER UNITED IS OWNNING.
and the best part is CHELSEA LOST TO BOLTON. i think.
let me tell them one word.
LOSER !
(yes i do get joy when chelsea loses)
-but im amazed at shevchenko's skills-

watford vs man utd. tmr 9.55pm

five. torres is ONE step closer to going man utd cause he said that if aletico still don't perform he might just leave when his contract ends yea? and yes he recovered from his injury x)) and sighs. hargreaves is still not coming over =(

six. i don't know what day is coming man.

seven. sixteen more days to prelims. that leaves us 2 days for each subject ;)

eight. i realised i have nothing more to announce =)

EVERYONE SLEEP WELL HAVE FUN AND ENJOY AND STUDY AND BE HAPPY :)

WOOSA WOOSA !

woosa woosa
放轻松快乐摇摆
张开双手迎接蓝蓝大海
woosa woosa
把烦恼统统抛开
say yeah say yeah
woosa woosa
--
乌云飘来挥手byebye
晴空万里太阳可爱
风吹过来
速度有一点快
想爱就跟上节拍
眼泪放假悲伤转台
爱靠过来大声say hi
没有答案就给我why oh why
想爱就吧心打开
不累不累再往前飞
准备准备爱在心扉

dan xiao gui

你爱咖啡低调的感觉
偏爱收集的音乐怪的很另类
你很特别每一个小细节
哎呀呀呀如此的对味
我怕浪费情绪的错觉
讨厌自己像刺猬小心的防卫
我很反对为失恋掉眼泪
哎呀呀呀离你远一些
喜欢看你紧紧皱眉叫我胆小鬼
你的表情大过於朋友的暧昧
寂寞的称谓甜蜜的责备
有独一无二专属的特别
喜欢看你紧紧皱眉叫我胆小鬼
我的心情就像和情人在斗嘴
奇怪的直觉错误的定位
对你哎呀呀呀我有点胆怯
我在我的世界不能犯规
你在你的世界笑我无所谓

身边

坐在你的身边是种满足的体验
看你看的画面过你过的时间
天也晴了花也开了微风也沉醉
虽然你不说话却也早已万语千言
分分秒秒显得清澈又珍贵
只有你才能给我这种感觉
不管心多疲倦梦想还有多远
有你陪伴一切都无所谓
我要陪你擦拭每个昨天
相片日记书签有暖意慢慢浮现
我要用默默的体贴让你睁开双眼
看见昨夜梦想都实现
我也愿意帮你打扫房间
把身体好好锻炼好让你觉得安全
让你记得我的优点
无论任何时间对我非常想念非常想念
我也愿意帮你打扫房间
把牌技好好演练陪你母亲打八圈
为你写下盈泪诗篇感觉就像触电
才会对我想念非常想念
我也愿意帮你打扫房间
帮你的爸爸戒烟帮你兄弟姐妹买早点
让你时刻觉得很炫生活过得很休闲
对我非常想念非常想念

爱的初体验

如果说你要离开我
请诚实点来告诉我
不要偷偷摸摸的走
像上次一样等半年
如果说你真的要走
把我的相片还给我
在你身上也没有用
我可以还给我妈妈
*什么天长地久
只是随便说说
你爱我那一点
你也说不出口
你认识了帅哥
就把我丢一旁
天气热的夏天
心像寒冷冬夜
想要买酒来浇忧愁
却懒懒不想出去走
想要来一包长寿烟
发现我未满十八岁
(music)
如果说你要离开我
请诚实点来告诉我
不要偷偷摸摸的走
像上次一样等半年
如果说你真的要走
把我的相片还给我
在你身上也没有用
我可以还给我妈妈
什么天长地久
只是随便说说
你爱我那一点
你也说不出口
你认识了帅哥
就把我丢一旁
天气热的夏天
心像寒冷冬夜
什么天长地久
只是随便说说
你爱我那一点
你也说不出口
你认识了帅哥
就把我丢一旁
天气热的夏天
心像寒冷冬夜
想要买酒来浇忧愁
却懒懒不想出去走
想要来一包长寿烟
发现我未满十八岁
是不是我的十八岁
注定要为爱情流泪
是不是我的十八岁
注定要为爱掉眼泪

2006-08-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

2006-08-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

I AM SO HIGH.

WOAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! I AM SO HIGH X)

2006-08-10T14:05:00.000+08:00

so what if its memories worth remembering?

better to forget them. before its all too late.

and you start missing more.

2006-08-08T18:50:00.000+08:00

as long as you stop trying. nothing will get in the way, caused you have stopped.

w00t. 2.4 today yea. my timing improve but position forget if dropped or better cause last year i went for the re-run think cause wellx, i fell down few days before the run. lol. bad bad fall. funny.

wellxXx. kinda sad that today its lyke after the run, a few of us guides lyke sat together for a while. and that was like.. ever since handover den never sit together at all le. so its rather sad lah.. den also very long never talk to certain people already. guess im kinda glad that farewell was placed at the end of the year.. so we still have a chance to bond x)

but the prob is what if 4h and guides chalet clash? i really fear that but.. wellx x= i hope it won't happen yea.

ha. was reading some junior blogs and den.. ha wellx, they were lyke me lastime. missing so much of 2e and hoping that 3h would bond.. and now, 2e is fading away. but 2e still rawks and 4h is still not bonded but wellx. i still like 4h for being 4h ! hope my secondary sch friends will stay. hope it won't end up like primary school.. wellx.

6H outing anyone? carrot cake asking.. lol. craps. does anyone even read my blog frm my primary sch class.. HmMs.

i realised that after O's there's so many things to do.. 4h chalet, guides maybe chalet, 2e chalet hopefully. den c if i gg shanghai anot. den got time to work le mehh? haish. and in a blink of an eye FOUR YEARS OF ANGLICAN IS OVER x'(

filled with memories, tears, laugther and the sense of home *) im totally in love with sch xD)

2006-08-04T22:11:00.000+08:00

heyHEY. anyway, torres shaved his hair alright.

i still like him though. he is talented x) and he is loyal to his club !

hMms. torres go GO GO !

l ol. i shall say hi to my new fish. HELLO !

lol. life is so exciting. i bought a packet of POPPING candy sweet for 30cents at a mama shop.. damn exciting lah. i tell you life is filled of excitement.

i wonder if fishes life are exciting too.

something very very very malu happened to me today.

i was in the canteen trying to throw the plastic bottle into the bin without touching the bin la. u know in the sense i lift the lid up and throw my bottle in the type of thing. but den right. this time the dustbin lid was kana blocked by the notice board lah. the bottom there. so the lid cannot lift high up enough for me to throw the bottle in. den i try a few times. den was about to change dustbin lah. and den a sec3 guy came and help me lift the dustbin. CAN U IMAGINE HOW MALU I FELT.. okay get the idea that i dont mind touching the dustbin ( i can always wash my hands right dur.) its just that if i can do so without touching the dustbin why not..

anyway to the person who helped me open. THANKS. quite gentlemen =)
but it made me feel vv malu.

the school is making me patrioitic ! the national day songs are so cool lah. x) make us so excited each time guessing the songs.

and then. and then. and then. perhaps.

2006-07-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

so many people birthday in the next four days. happy birthday x) especially to the one tomorrow. ahah.

i dont know wad to wear on sunday and im lazy to think. sighs. not enough clothes. how.

today did something fun. la.

5 years down we're 21. that's what my friend said. i replied. 4 years later, that's world cup.

my dear torres doesnt want to go over to man utd. he is loyal to his aletico mandrid. loyalty x) as long as you dont go to better place just because of money i will still lyke him. if you really go to other places because of money lyke some losers lyke ballack and shevchenko. haish. they are good players but. wellx.

torres, i'll miss you.

2 years later we'll meet again via the television on euro 2008. i hope spain will go far alright?

nice haircut- botak. soon the hair will grow back. ahh. i await the day =)

i have yet to find the drive and motivation to study. enlighten me.

ePL starting next month.

manchester united- luck x) no torres = life still goes on alright.

he is still young. 22 xD

screwing up my maths. daH well. like the saying goes.

2006-07-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

anglican high 50th birthday today.
well it is a joyous occasion in the day.
i really wonder how they cleaned up the hall.

there was only one star tonight.

and because i want to know why.
and maybe fear is the only thing that's left hanging.
learning to make decisions based on everything else except gutfeeling.
it doesnt work this way.

not another emo night.

2006-07-21T22:08:00.000+08:00

and that marks the end of the last board deco i ever gonna do in my whole entire life in 4h for 4h.

with my wonderful help the board looked simply beautiful xD

there was the pulley system made out of paintbrushes and colourful strings. and there was the 4h technology which is GREATLY secret. WONDER WHY our board the paper NEVER TEARS?
come come. give you all ALL a very good clue. look above the board. daaaaaaaaaaaaaah. the secret is out.. sighs x=

come to 4H and you see the mummified man. turn over to see who he is representing.. and then there is the black man climbing the mountain and right int he middle of the board there is..

SPIDER MAN. the pirated blue red version or the ORIGINAL black white version.

and then the board looks perfect.

of course with my help. and its all thanks to ME ME ME ME ME ME ME and ME.

not forgetting those souls who helped yea. im lazy to name them x)

"if you are meant to return to a place, you will. it's just the matter of time"

i am in a bad mood for a reason and most of the time im not the reason. but dont worry im not in a bad mood now cause nobody pissed me off yet. let's see how long it will take for the next person to pissed me off. *beware* of my temper. x=

2006-07-19T16:58:00.000+08:00

okays. i have just overcome the obstacle of myself and i have decided that i should try my luck on mt kinabalu because,

(1) it is after O'levels and everyone probably be so HIGH
(2) i am already sec4 and this is gonna be my last field trip
(3) i dont think there is any chiangmai trip for we sec4s to go again
(4) i will feel very accomplished if i reached the summit
(5) lifetime experience to see sunrise and STARS at night. i hope there is no rain.
(6) good chance to lose weight. with the training and all that..
(7) pokeytoots might be going TOGETHER !
(8) this is my chance to take nice photographs x))
(9) i know its gonna be fun
(1o) i still have to convinced my parents =(

but i guess if i badly want it i guess they will give in.. for now i have to take care of my health ALOT hope no gastrics. and please no altitute sickness.. thats what i fear x=

anyway i have decided to attempt on a very persuasive blog entry on my life in anglican high school and why i have found it enjoyable in this four years. think its rather memorable for me to blog on that x) and apparently i shall do it not today xDD

omgosh. why am i so excited now.

i really hope fernando torres is going over to man utd.
im determined. to be a 6-pointer if he does.. i really hope he does.
every morning i rush for the papers just to read the latest information on whether he is coming over. every single wait is making me freakingly anxious.

please please please. go manchester united (x
i will buy ur jersey if u go even though it costs $129 i will save hard for it.

something just shot my bubble down real hard.

Atletico aiming to keep hold of striker Torres

wellx.. why why why. nvm. as long as the transfer season is still on i still have hope.

Atletico coach Javier Aguirre has said he has spoken to Torres and that the player would give no guarantee he would stay.

But the Mexican made it clear that he wants the 22-year-old to remain at the club. 'Fernando and Atletico have very strong links,' Aguirre told Marca on Tuesday. 'Atletico need him and he needs Atletico.'

Torres, who was one of Spain's most impressive performers at the World Cup, has been Atletico's top scorer in each of the last four seasons.

Spanish and English media have reported that Manchester United are preparing a bid for the striker.

wellx.

2006-07-15T17:27:00.000+08:00

and then i aksed myself again.

what's more to life?

2006-07-14T18:36:00.000+08:00

omgosh. i realised i cant spend friday afternoons at home.
i've sat in front of the comp since i reached home till now and its almost 6.

italy won the world cup though i very much wished it was spain or england. or france.

i believe 100% wad zizou said. even when he headbutted the person. i know it was dumb and I believe him totally. he did it for a reason.

click 5ive really rawks. but dont know how long this can last.

anyway i got my shoes yea. waited like 8 days for it. what a long wait. lol. before i got it, my bro described it as white, pink rubber sole with pink laces and black face printed cartoon. imagine.
i imagined it in my head for a lot of days and when it came back..

lol let me tell u what happen. it was monday night and i was freaking tired cause i watched world cup the morning and was so HIGH during the day that in the night i just dropped dead in bed. so i slept lets say at 1030? i wanted to wait for my bro JUST to see my shoes or whether he had bought me the SPAIN jersey i have bugged him too right frm the day before he left. and then..

at 130+am.. i kicked something hard on my bed.. i didn't open my eyes yet but i heard noises den i was like.. wait, my brother back le? so i WOKE up and saw the shoes. LOL. can u imagine? he put the shoes on my bed. lol. lyke wad santa claus like that. wad rubbish lahs. den later i looked. and looked and looked. not exactly what i asked for or what i thought it would look like. so i took the shoes and went to his room. LOL.

the shoes look like.. some ppl say its childish but apparently i've resettled my thoughts and agree that it looks nice. maybe its not the truth but i have to say so. but the longer i look the more okay it look lah. i see if i can take photo of it and post online cause according to my bro the person said it was NEW and i guess i have to agree cause i search online every where can't find. he bought the LOVE PEACE one for himself. which was absolutely common. and my bro said if i didnt want he could go sell it. lol. I HAVE THE ONLY PAIR OF SHOE IN SINGAPORE ! and he saw the shoe in only ONE shop in the whole MBK. i seriously think so. unique shoes ! la. it was a jack p. wadeva its called. not chuck taylor.

and then i went to his room. and i saw jerseys jerseys and more jerseys. and den i looked and looked and i didn't see any red. so there was,
robeto carlos (brazil), thiery henry(france), pires(arsenal) and c.ronaldo(manutd). STEP STEP STEP STEP STEP. damn. why that jersey? i'm so sorry about your(the jersey) fate. since it stepped into my house it has to face all the critism, damage i would give it. so sorry. that's your fate.
SIANS. i think he wont dare to wear it out.
pires jersey was EXCELLENT. i mean arsenal jersey. totally NICE COLOUR AND NICE TEXTURE. PERFECT. i gonna wear it one day but i dont know when.

and then. i asked. WHERE IS MY SPAIN JERSEY MY NUMBER NINE FERNANDO TORRES?

he said he saw ONE. but it was free size. long enough to be a pyjamas. BUT THAT WAS NUMBER NINE WITH TORRES NAME. haish. but maybe if he really buy its also impossible for me to wear out if it was really THAT huge and long x= and there was no SPAIN pencil box for me. neither the tote bag i asked for. at least i had my shoes. lol. btw the shoes money was not from his own pocket. i was the left over chiangmai money i hadd. daaaH.

whr are my spain merchandise? anyway, i've decided to save and buy one soon. hopefully in time for national day xD

today had a joke in class..
sherwin said.. "HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLO.."
i said. "moto."

bWAHAHAH. okay not funny.

oh oh. and FOURH left me another INTERESTING MEMORY TO KEEP.

w00t. SOCCER IS FUN AND I WANT TO PLAY EVERY PE LESSON ! its damn amusing when there are 6 girls and 6 guys in a wet street soccer court. let me tell you one word to let ur imagination run wild. funny.

fourH is my graduating class. learning to treasure the times. sometimes its not that we cant bond. when the atmosphere is there we automatically be enthu about everything. ha.

mrs ganesan was RIGHT. our whole level is still in the day dream mood.. because of all the celebration and stuffs.. wellx.. what to do?

EVERYONE JIAYOU ALRIGHTS. fifty seven more days !

2006-07-02T02:21:00.000+08:00

this post is not suitable if you like christiano ronaldo.
i repeat.
this post is not suitable if you like christiano ronaldo.

please kindly click the X button at the top right hand corner of the screen and SHOO OFF !

ALOT OF REASONS WHY C.RONALDO SHALL LEAVE MANCHESTER UNITED, OR BEST, PUT HIM OFF THE BENCH FOR EVERY SINGLE MATCH. WAHAHS.

ONE: can't you see that he purposely confronted rooney and irritated him and make him agitated and ended up rooney got a RED card? and HELLO they are team mates. and i bet with you c. ronaldo did that on PURPOSE and he is prolly GLOATING away. wad a jerk. and i tell you, the whole england hates him now, and the referee. why cant they get a better referee?

TWO: from this incident, rooney and c.ronaldo CANNOT get along and since man utd is about to build a team around rooney, c. ronaldo shall GO. OFF YOU GO ! and since he DIE DIE want to go real mandrid. I BELIEVE THAT THEY HAVE THE $$. and so you see. MAN UTD WILL GET THE MONEY FOR SELLING A LOSER PLAYER. AND DEN, MAN UTD WILL HAVE MONEY TO BUY TORRES ! i dont mind aaron lennon or fabregas. and wait we need 1 more striker since van nisteroyl is going. HMMS. maybe lionel messi. ha. im dreaming x=

THREE: he is too show off with his skills which are not very good.

FOUR: i think the whole england hates him. wads the point of him playing in English Premier League?

and for that. i realised that why should i be wasting time thinking of reasons why he shouldnt go. he is not even worth to be thought of.

shoo off. you spoiled my day.

2006-06-28T19:50:00.000+08:00

today, is pretty sad. the match i feared came and what i wanted didnt happen, maybe as usual. wellx.

france and spain are two teams that i supported. why?
France:
Thiery Henry - the most loyal player i've ever seen.. staying to play for the club he loves..
Zidine Zidane - he's pretty skilled. maybe very.
Barthez - i dont know why i like him. maybe cause his jersey is number 16. lol. so unique. aniway he played for manchester united before. thats a plus plus point xD

Spain:
Fernando Torres - looks good, fast, swift with the ball, young, .. ... ... ...
my new craze. hope it wont be a craze. it would be forever.
Fabregas - young but quick and talented.
Raul - he was very good in the past, now even though not so good but still good.
Villa - brilliant striker. watched him play so many matches. like score alot of goals.
Pablo & Puyol - he's good. really good. defenders xD

blahs blahs blahs.

and wellx, my bro just came home and the first thing he said to me was, "France won. " x((

MUST I WAIT ANOTHER FOUR MORE YEARS TO WATCH FERNANDO TORRES PLAY AGAIN?

blahs blahs blahs.
anyway i dont like the referee? u know how pathetic is it for me to watch the match ALONE at 3AM. AND I WOKE UP AT 2.48am, even before my alarm rang. its 3am and i watched a game which i din expect the results at all. SPAIN WAS SUPPOSED TO WIN !

i know im biased.. but.. wellx. alright. france defence was good. spain couldnt even make it into the penalty box most of the time..

the 2nd france goal was crap. really. i SAW henry pushed the whoever puvol. and henry FELL PUTTING HIS HANDS ON HIS FACE AND THE REFEREE ASSUMED THAT PUVOL FOUL. HE DIDNT EVEN TOUCH HENRY AT ALL. AND BOTH FELL DOWN. angry angry angry.

2nd thing is i dont know why ribery's goal looked offside to me.. hMms. the referee is italy refere.. ITALY ITALY ITALY ITALY ! ! ! i think they should get out.

but after reading the spain players comments. maybe it made me feel a little better.

Fernando TORRES (ESP)
We can go home with our heads held high because we’ve performed well and this is a young team with lots of quality. I’m sure the nucleus we have here can bring more joy to the fans at the next World Cup.

RAUL (ESP)
It’s always a tremendous disappointment whenever you have to go home earlier than you wanted. France were the better side and although we tried, we didn’t have many chances to win the game, despite the fact we put everything into beating them.

We’re a young team and we need to learn from the good things we’ve done. There’s a lot of quality in this side and the future looks bright for the next few tournaments. I hope things go well at the 2008 European Championships because I think that will be my last championship.

David VILLA (ESP)
It was a very even game and their equaliser affected us badly. We were all convinced we were going to win because of how we’d been playing. We really thought today was going to be a big day for Spain. I would have liked to have finished the game but the guys that came on did really well. This is just something we’ll have to learn from so we can improve. We’re very sad we came up against a great team who played a great game.

look at this.. how unfair.. its like torres got hit lah. den he sit on the field. den the referee did a "stand up action" and the commentator seemed to say.. "get up, you're not gonna get any penalty shot." i feel lyke.. im damn angry. it was 4am.. and this type of thing happen and it was 1-1.. referee was biased in my vieww.

and now my only wish is for torres to go EPL. i wants him to go man utd and i think he is worth 21million pound. and so.. man utd have to sell van nisteroyl but his performance screwed up in world cup? he was goal-less. anyway, im getting desperate.. i dont mind him not joining man utd as long as he gets into EPL.. arsenal is fighting for him too.. just not chelsea. if he goes chelsea.. he will end up like ballack. dude. dont go.

sad. sad. sad. what can i say? wellx.

2006-06-25T17:59:00.000+08:00

all my soccer updates are wrongg. abit wrong.

england if beat ecuador, will face either portugal or netherlands. and the winner will face either germany or argentina. so i got my information all wrong okay. and south korea is not in so prediction also wrong. now i re-predict..

aiya. i cant.. either brazil or spain will make it to the semifinals. who?

im lazy to blog. im tired. daah. bye

2006-06-22T11:47:00.000+08:00

click to his official site

fernando torres said:
"I’m an accessible person. I think signing autographs after a training session is almost a duty, a moral obligation. I’m aware of the enthusiasm and excitement that the fans feel towards me, the respect and affection they have for me. In fact, not long ago I was one of them. Being important to the fans is a source of pride and satisfaction for me. What I don’t like so much is the loss of privacy, not being able to have a good time with friends in a public place like any normal person, which at the end of the day is what I am."

fernando torres eyes are nice ! look carefully.

look at the poster behind him, eh.. beside him.

what people say about him,

Elias: He was very naughty and very lucky. One day the teacher caught him copying and she said: “It doesn’t matter, but don’t do it again”. And all because of his pretty face. The rest of the class complained because he got off, but nothing happened.

hmms. i dont know. from all these i've seen he seems to me like a very innocent and simple soccer player lehh. i hope he stays like this and dont change x)

2006-06-22T11:11:00.000+08:00

watched the 3am england match 2 mornings ago and wellx, i had to agree joe cole goal was nice !

so, does england still have chances to win? wellx. england will face germany in the quarter finals if they win ecuador and germany wins sweden. and so you see, germany will never face england in the FINALS. stop dreaming everyone !

i shall predict quarter final match okays.

germany vs england

its not very easy to say england will win. look at germany. so on-form. i hate to think of this but chelsea might be the all so power team next season. look what players they have. all have been performing well except maybe lampard. look at crespo, drogba, shevchenko, ballack ... its driving me nuts as i worry for manchester united. . anyway, i have a strong gut feeling that torres is coming manchester united and he will play alongside with wayne rooney = power combi ! w00tz. the youth player rawks ! ha. i call anyone below 25 youth players.. x) sorry pals, although i would very much hope that england will win, base on facts and the strength of germany, they are gonna win =(( look at erikssen and his nonsense. england's strongest team since 1966? look what is happening. bring in only FOUR strikers and with 1 just recovered, rooney, and 1 just injured, 1 inconsistent player - crouch, and 1 wunderboy walcott? im really doubting walcott abilities although i very much support youth players. HMMS.

argentina vs netherlands

argentina will win, no doubts. they draw with netherlands in yesterday match simply because they left all their star players on the bench. and i really hope that van nisteroyl value increases and shoot high high up in thie world cup so that man utd can get more money after selling him. i dont mind seriously. trading him for torres. COME COME COME. torres come to manchester united ! i think he could stay long in man utd. i see a future of him in man utd !

italy vs brazil
i think by the time this match, brazil will be pretty on form with KAKA doing what he is best at and ronaldinho driving into real action ! hmms. maybe they would leave ronaldo on the bench x= he has been performing rather way below expectations in the past few matches. tonight match against japan, prolly they can win with another 9 point straights? hmms. italy performance have been good too, but brazil would be better. ahhha.

spain vs south korean (again)
the met in the world cup 2002 and korean won, probably due to them being the host country.
spain will win, base on strength and because fernando torres is playing. if i choose between torres and park, im sorry park, its torres !! spain team A is as talented as teamB ! l o l. when i was watching the spain and tunisia match, the fifa editor was saying that, what do you think of spain's performance in 2nd half? they still have a benchful of star players. l o l . so cool rights. a h h h a .

anyway, im not bothered about nt being able to watch the spain match anymore cause he is nt playing yea. manager says he need to rest. and he is a good el nino (the kid). ahah. i want to start my torres fanatic federation le. MEMBERS CAN REPORT TO ME ! ahahahs.

i rmB my adriano-craze x= wooops. but i think fernando torres will last cause HE IS JOINING MANCHESTER UNITED !! okay lah. this is not a fact yet but soon it will become. and so if torres is joining a club which i supported since im primary 4.. ahhahahah. he will rawk forever mans. lets see. he is 22 this year. 26, he will play in 2010. 30, he will play in 2014. den he will retire x= x= x= i hope he retires in manchester united. omgosh. im doing my wishful day dreaming again. sHush. x=

and then the match will be
germany vs argentina
i think germany will win. the host country always gets through.

brazil vs spain
spain will win ! this is a bias stand x))

and the grand final will be:
GERMANY VS SPAIN
and i think germany will win because they are the host x=

and this is my perdiction of worldcup 2006.
let's see how mcuh it is true. if its true, maybe i can start giving advice to those people who want to bet.. ahaha.

ciao. comment on my prediction !

2006-06-21T03:54:00.000+08:00

i watched the 3am spain vs tunisia match yesterday and fernando torres scored two goals xDD
just some pictures for the viewing pleasure xD

and today, i had to watch channel 110 with someone who refuses to allow me to change the channel. and u know what is channel 110? it specially films a particular player at a certain time lahs. and you know how retarded is it to watch the player walk/run/slack. and even though he's not getting the ball, you are still watching him -_- l o l .

but i have to admit at certain angles it was nice x)

oh and i have SLACKED for monday and tuesday. guess i better get some work done tmr. maybe alot of work done tmr. i really did nothing for the past two days except watching tv and soccer, going to sch and for lunch and sleeping. sians. must slowly enjoy my last few days of holidays.

w e l l x . match started and england leading with 1 nil from a fantastic goal by joe cole.

seeya ^

2006-06-18T17:53:00.000+08:00

i juz concluded i cant set my eyes on books for more den 10mins. distractions, distractions and more distractions. daah.

dont really like the article in sunday times on girls watching soccer. but i kinda find one part amusing though. they were saying that guys are addicted to the world cup happens once every four years and only one month. and the comparison was girls go shopping more than 4 times a week. i hope i get the information right but it was something like this. then i read liao i was lyke.. true.. ha. hMms. i dont know why that guy are complaining that girls are watching soccer lah. why restrict watching soccer to a guy's sport and hobby? but i guess there are still girls who watch soccer just to have a 'common topic' with their guy or whatever. why cant they understand this 'effort' ? it is not easy for a girl to sit through 90 mins to watch 22 people chasing after ONE ball. so why can't they just be glad that the girl is willing to go through this torture of 90mins to sit and accompany you for the game. WHY COMPLAIN? blahblahblahs. and if the guys look at hot babes in the show in the audience there blah blah blah. whats wrong with girls going crazy over hot people lyke c. ronaldo, beckham, fernando TORRES, ... ... ... ... ? daaah. be FAIR okays. ahha.

anyway, im a genuine soccer lover. aha x= so dont doubt me. although my knowledge of offside is rather craps lah. its lyke i still dont agree den certain times the offside rule should be applied. like if the player only a step ahead of the defender den offside. very unfair u know. and wad if the defender is slack and lazy to run? den forever off side meh? hMms.

i still dont know who im supporting this worldcup. i cheer for spain, south korea, england and germany. but, not much for germany since kahn doesnt play anymore. france too, btw. cause they have a great player called henry who doenst seem to perform in world cup. w e l l x .

hMms. anyway. dont watch soccer with me. you'll go deaf. or, you can scream with me. and i dont scream for the sake of screaming. i repeat. i dont scream for the sake of screaming.

ANYWAYS.

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i dont know but please KNOW someone before you judge someone. do you know how UNFAIR it is when someone hear UNTRUE rumours and its some bloody gossiper spreading it? HELLO, i dont know but wads the big deal with spreading rumours. blahs blahs blahs. THINK VERY FUN IS IT? and another thing. dont JUDGE someone because of rumours and i dont see the need of saying that someone "sucks" can you define the meaning "sucks"? if you cant dont use it and if you dont like someone, dont day the person "sucks". you say you just dont like the person. get it? blahs. when will these kids learn. hello ! dont just grow old, GROW UP !
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sorry if this part sounded rather crude. need to get this matter of my mind. darn.

now im not in a mood of anything.

2006-06-17T18:59:00.000+08:00

back on my usual update on soccer i guess.

england match caught many by surprise yea. the starting. they were supposed to trash trinindad and tobago and ended up, so many misses. owen was disappointing as usual and crouch did many misses which were quite bad. but his goal changed the whole picture around. england was so desperate for a goal. everyone could tell. ha. and later rooney entering the match was also a big surprise lah. u know errikson tell the media the stuffs its lyke nothing but rubbish x= hMms. i dont know how much can england win now. the probability is very low i guess?

LOOK AT ARGENTINA TRASH SERBIA 6 NILS. thats one of the best match of the world cup so far. but i didnt watch. forgot what i was doing on the comp then. and then, the next possibilty could be spain. they did a splendid win of 4nils. seriously, im really looking forward to spain matches. there's torres to look out for.. aHAHA. i seriously considering to name my son torres in the future.. i find the name very nice.. aint it? ahah. its pronounce as torres with the res going a tone up, not the tone down. hmms. l o l. and then there's brazil. let's see how long more ronaldiho needs to gear up power.. and there's rivaldo, robinho ronaldo and.. KAKA: im realli fantasied by this name too. and then, there's italy. anyway, i dont think holland and portugal can make it far. gut feeling yea. and then the underdogs: south korean. they're hot i tell you. burning with power and excellent team work. this will bring them far ! sometimes i really wonder why france cant perform well despite having excellent players. i still lyke the goalie who doesnt like 1. lol. barthez. la la la. was former man utd keeper yea x)

aniway england might be in danger. if germany loses to ecuador or that game was a draw, germany would be in second place and england would have to face germany. i dont know but germany is the host countries and most of the time.. wellx. u know what im meaning. so. germany please win ecuador. and then england can go on to greater heights.

there shld be hope for singapore ! trinidad and tobago has a population of 1.1million and can make it to world cup. why cant singapore? l o l.

anyway i have 6.1cm thick of photos in anglican high sch. im still searching for more sec1 ones.if u happen to have any sec1 photos. SEND ME. im so curious !

2006-06-16T19:47:00.000+08:00

lol. i think im doing cranky stuffs agn? cheap thrills. daah. anyway yesterday i saw the dumbest thing. lol. outside famous amous the put "FREE SMELLS" wow. that helps lah. lol.
sometimes people do and say the darnest things xS
so weird.

anyway, i asked someone what that person wants out of life yesterday. the person replied, more real friends. and then i asked what you mean by real. the person said, someone who will stand by you, back u up, wake up in the middle of the night to accompany you. HmMs. and then i rethink about the word 'real'. hMms. i dont know. maybe i dont understand it the deep way and i somehow feel that the word is very superficial. hMms. enlighten me-

and the person asked me what i want out of my life.
i thought over it,
(*) peace, happiness, simplicity and to stretch myself and achieve my achievable aims x)

i shall focus on the word PEACE. it's not that simple as it looks. wellx, just ask yourself. concentrate on the word PEACE, and think what it really means. i bet your brain will run wild. really. it's a strong word and has a deep meaning to it.

and then, there was another conversation with an old pal i had. wellx, i dont know why chat logs came up and we read through it. and omgosh. i said how childish i was then. and that person asked me, why childish. It wasnt childish at the point of time when i did it. there were circumstances which led to such actions. and then, i tried so hard to remember why i did such dumb stuffs then, and i dont know whether to be sad or happy that i cant remember it. i really have selective memory loss, and this may be a good, or bad thing.

today, i just developed 35 photos yea. if you know me long enough, i'm really a photo-freak cause i believe that photos are the best way to keep the memories fresh and alive. and some people say, "what's the point of trying to remember these memories? it only makes u sadder when you realised that you cant re-live this moment twice" and then i thought about the question, i couldn't find and answer to it. enlighten me again. photos can speak a thousand words. for me lahs. i can appretiate photos and natural beauty. especially colours of natural phenomenum. like pink/purple sunset. red sky. and seeing colours in the night: aurora.

okay, catch the wave do sound nice after all. it didn't catch my attention for the previous few times i've listened to it but oh it does now. ha. its lyke wuniang. at first hear nt vv nice but longer den nice already. maybe i should give more songs chances.

anyway, i had a dream last night. it's nothing much actually. it's just a normal dream i guess. but so far, none of my dreams came true. and i rather they not, cause if not my nightmare would come true. but, i find that dream could be your heart telling you, what you really want. but if that's the case, why havent i dreamt of jay chou and edison chen yet? hMms.

l o l. i was doing a quiz and it asks,
On Saturday night, your man could be found:
and this is what i put.
Watching a game at a sports bar.

l o l. prolly the world cup mood into me le lahs. l o l. but one criteria which is very important. cannot support chelsea. LOL. i'm sorry. i dont like chelsea really to the core. unless they change manager or the oil owner gets bankrupt.

hmms. i just saw a quote which i wrote lastime in my older entries.
"I wish I was a silencer."
now, i cant remember why i wanted to be a silencer. xS

oh the test reveals that my type is an artiste. my hair seems to be stand already x=

my cinderella story is happily ever after. that sounds pretty usual of me.. hMms.

You`re looking for something you can`t find
If you give it up, you`ll lose your mind
There`s always something in your way
What can you say?
You`re gonna have good day

2006-06-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

l o l .
a m o m e n t o f e x c i t e m e n t b e f o r e t h e b i g g a m e b e g i n s x )

thanks.

2006-06-14T19:03:00.000+08:00

haiyo. those who want to know about latest stuffs about world cup yea.
go to:
www.fifaworldcup.com
www.soccernet.com

yea. they provide live commentary yea.

so tonight the big big match actually got two but SIGHS. im watching spain vs ukraine alone. dont know why my bros nt eating dinner tonight = come home very late. ha. i think they are very pissed off with the brazil match yesterday. brazil was supposed to trash croatia and ended up 1-0 only. lol. but KAKA score. so cute. KAKA. was thinking whether to watch france match or brazil match and in the end decided on france yea. dont know lah. its lyke 0-0. disappointing. henry was rather off lah. he gave quite a few power shots but all miss. damn sadd. den zidane also played okay okay only lorx. but DAMN SAD. cause no goal. imagine me ALONE watching the match cause my bros were pigging to watch the 3am brazil match. disappointing la but den haiya. over liaos.

anyway, south korea one they play only abit better den japan. sad. but the thing about asian teams is, they practice more teamwork than non-asian teams. really. its very true. but yesterday vv sad. see my park kana bullied by the huge togo people. den park kana foul lyke so many freaking times lah =( big big bully ! daaah. but in the end, ahn jun hwan saved the day ! ha. i know him as messy hair x= cause his hair. ha. maybe its style i guez. but i think he will bring his country to quite far. wonder if man of the match was park. hmms. he played pretty well.

aniway, the other match well worth to watch but im not watching is the germany vs poland. sounds pretty cool lah i guess. lol. i dont know much about this match though.

tmr got england vs trinidad and tobago i think. dont know what is the country name man. but got the dwight yorke. hmms. den i guess rooney would be delayed. i hope its delayed cause i think they would play rather rough and if this would hurt fergerson's prized possesion, erikson is gonna get sued. x= this sounds rather terrible rights.

i dont know why. couldnt connect with the sea today.
maybe what's left missing cannot be left missing forever.

daah.
i've got so far. push push push. maybe 2 more.

2006-06-13T22:12:00.000+08:00

怎么说忘就忘记
这甜蜜的过去
被思念包着厚厚的糖衣
不想再为了你伤心
这最冷的夏季
慢慢地慢慢结成冰

承诺变悲哀
悲哀因我被爱
悲哀是因为你不在
我好想抱着你诉苦
却显得好无助
无助的让人想痛哭

我只想要和你在一起
朝着幸福走去
像恋人般的简单甜蜜
我只想要和你不分离
怎么轻易放弃
说你忘记

爱情怎么会让每颗心都碎
我不再相信你
却又慢慢想起你

我想这一定是报应都怪我太贪心
才让你头也不回的离去
黄色丝巾是想念在树上被风吹
孤单的孤单一个人无法沉睡

ha. this song sure bring back alot of memories from wangzi bian qingwa.. lolx. off to soccer. SOUTH KOREA JIAYOU !! PARK!!

2006-06-13T18:47:00.000+08:00

daah. hmms. 5 of world cup and i have watched alot of matches. haish. i think when i watch the match the match would be boring. lol. yesterday aussie vs japan match was very pissing off lahs. wellx, japan offside but the referee still counted it as goal and the 3 goals at the last 13mins was abit craps but aussie. but one goal was chio. wellx, other than that the match was pretty craps. ha. but get to see nakata play wellx.

the long awaited match tonight: brazil vs croatia 3am. daaah. i dont think im watching. its too late.. =( =( but im watching south korea vs togo at 9pm. park park !! lala~ he better play well mans. daah. aniwae the news on christiano ronaldo abit sad lah, they say he selfish. but i think he has always been playing this style which is pretty bad but? dont know.

people changed very fast i realised.
oh wellx. it was nothing but i blank imagination i guess.

soccer here i come again x)

2006-06-09T18:37:00.000+08:00

wellx. TODAY IS WORLD CUP!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAH~

after so much wait its finally starting today and TOMORROW IS:

10th JUNE 2006 9PM : ENGLAND VS PARAGUAY.

woaah. ENGLAND !

im really tired today. went out from 8 to 1030 yesterday. its 8am to 1030pm. lol.
altogether played 7 games of the bball tou lan game @ downtown east for cindy's birthday. glad that she enjoyed the strawberry chocolate. all thanks to brilliant *aHem idea. la~ the bball arcade tou lan game is really crazy. my arms and hamstring there aching lyke hell. dont know why lah but the 5 games is really play till sweat.. wahax. nextime can go there and play as exercise.. power~

wellx. im so freaking tired lah. went orchard to shop a while already want to knock out liaos. its like last night was tired until i come home and sit down. havent bathe. i just sit down on the fan. and stare into space. really too tired to move. ha. after sitting down for a very long time den went to bathe. xS too tired tired tired.

haish. now so many people away nia. all overseas. quite sians abit. lols. nvms. i got tv to watch. ahah. i have 15mins to finish my dinner and chiong for tuition. ha. and i dont know why. its either im sick or the weather is cranky. im feeling hot this moment and cold the next moment. daaah. better not have fever x= x= x= .

ANYONE CAN TEACH ME INITIAL D WHEN PLAY MANUAL MODE. WAD IS THE HAND control for. the the the. aiya. duno wad its called. hand gear? ahhh. SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT IT IS. i dowanna malu myself by asking people at the arcade. yesterday the bball already so malu liaos. lost wallet even more malu. but lucky sia. i found my wallet..

wellx. world cup here i come. sians. germany sure own tonight one what. but cant watch kahn and ballack play. what a pity x(

everyone go watch !

2006-06-07T19:18:00.000+08:00

daaah. power. i ran to east coast park and stoned there for lets say 15mins. and then i realised i got a headache. so i started walking back. lol. den i walked to the park. near my house that one. lol. saw my bro playing soccer. let me tell you what i saw. they spent 10mins argueing caused they don have goalpost -.- and then later i think the teams cannot split properly -.- and then nobody wants to be goalie. WAHHAHAAH. i stayed there and watched them argue. and then i saw 2 girls. damn funny. one is reading book. the other was pulling that girl go play. then they ended up lyke monkehs. not much. actually they were doing some dumb stuffs with the fitness equipment? ahaha. oh and guess what. my bro just came home and he said he didnt see me. i dont know what the hell my bro was playing. lol. haiyo haiyo.

i think i should buy a bike. den i can cycle to the ends of the earth. daah.

2006-06-06T22:54:00.000+08:00

ha. i was so excited lets say 5 mins ago? i walked home, the usual canal way and omgosh. there were alot of stars. not kidding. really alot. ha, have to add on that all were very faint. very x= i lost count at 15. cause as i walked, i see more appearing. i havent really seen stars for a long time and there's just one word to describe them - chio. aurora is pretty x)

apparently blogskins cant display my pic on aurora which i made it into a template and dumb ppl are scolding me on what a lousy template it is. its the pic cannot load not my fault right. scold for what. wad rubbish. give me 2.5 stars. craps. wellx. aurora is pretty.

im dazzled by the stars lah. actually after so long then i saw.. wonder when can i see my next shooting star. maybe stars. lols. daaah. im so greedy. but anyway, i just wanna comment that the tv drama the shooting stars are all so fake. lols. you'll never know it till you've seen one x) jealous jealous? x= x= x=

maybe in New Zeland i can see stars everyday. daaah. me and my strawberry plantation. where are you?

gettyimages has no image of shooting stars.

this is another aurora borealis photo. enjoy x) there are stars in the background.
i've finally found the reason why stars dont look good in photographs? they can dazzle and sparkle in photos. unlike real life. wellx.

i wonder when will i see such stuffs.

and then i remembered how much i wanted to join astronomy club. lol. i dont know but since young, i always thought that everyone like stars cause i dont know? the old kiddy song, twinkle twinkle little star. ha. guess we were all thought to grow up to like stars but i guess, thats not true?

meteor shower: liu xing yu x)

this looks a little fake. somehow i prefer shooting star. not too many at a time. becomes a little messy aint it?

haish. i had a new obsession each night since sunday. sunday was online shopping where i spent more than 2 hours browsing through stuffs online and most of them were of course, branded stuffs lyke DIOR and CHANEL which are top ranked in my list x) tiffany and co too. aha. the rings really rawk x)

this picture is absolutely heavenly. look at the reflections. you see stars in the reflection and its lyke so freaking nice. omgosh.

this is very cool.

i dont know when my obession with stars began. all i know i had 3 emails regarding stars le. ha. starangel, sstarx and honeystars. i like little twin stars too. lol.

i've always wondered why such a natural phenomenon is such a beauty. yet, Singapore is not exposed to such beauty. What a pity !

2006-06-05T20:07:00.000+08:00

ha. stumbled upon this document. it was written in August 2004. i seriously dont remember why but, here it is.

Guiding life

Being in Guides for 2 years, I have indeed learned many lessons of life, which are very meaningful and have played an important part of me. It plays a role in character building and in shaping who I am today. Guides activities are always fun and exciting which ranges from foot drill and physical training, which builds up endurance and unity, like the saying “All for one, One for all.” Other activities, which include fire lightning also known as outdoor cooking and gadget tying. All these teaches us the various skill and knowledge we need to know for survival skills and everything which could be quite useful for our future life. I like outdoor cooking the best as teamwork is really needed to make the whole thing successful. The happiness of tasting the own food you’ve cooked together with your teammates is so great. The joy of getting your fire light up after some hard work is also wonderful. I also enjoy campfires as it can bond people together despite schools, races, CCAs and many differences. The songs we sing also create unity within everyone there. Being in guides have taught me important lessons in life, which includes sisterhood, discipline, endurance, teamwork and many more aspects. I have enjoyed my life in guiding as it taught me many lessons of life, which could be quite useful for the future.

hmms. i think the nearest possibility i could think of is the IP application. but i din remember i used guides as my topic.. hMms. dudettes ! help me remember why i wrote all these..

dah. off to clearing more.

2006-06-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

oh. went to my neighbourhood park just now to check out if kids still had childhood.

i mean childhood in the sense that every saturday afternoon or every weekday afternoon. kids run around the playground lyke nobody's business. queue up for the swing which always seemed occupied. and adults who stay there for lets say 2mins. they will asked themself if they were in the zoo or a playground. those were the kiddy days.

oh wait. lets start with the younger ones first. 2 to 4 years old. parents or maid will bring you along. then they will carry you up onto the swing or those slides. then you will try to run away from your parents and find people of your own age.

and then you grow up. lets say 5 to 7 years old. these are the most hetic days. the days your parents would wish u'll never born as you scream and run around lyke there's no tomorrow. you will start getting your own gang at the park and lets say know a few name or so? and here comes the big group games lyke catching, blind man, ice and water, fire and ice, police and thief. you name it, these kids got it. and soon the game began with laugther, screams. wellx. i saw more den 10 falls today but nothing was serious. most kids just get up on their feet again and start running. hMms. wellx, lets say a big fall happened and it starts bleeding. most of the time, you would cry. maybe your friends might come around. but the funny thing is nobody knows what to do. and then an adult came and blah blah blah. you went home. and then, you remembered all the fun you were having before the fall. how you wished you din fall. daah. and the following week. you will start begging your parents to let you go and play again. despite the fact that it hurts when you walk or run. wellx.

and then 8 and above, you are prolly planning some dumb obstacle course that me and my cousins used to do in the park. at a point of time i played hide and seek. omgosh it was so cool. you know me and i already forgotten who the person is, hide? we hide under the drain. wahax. best place can. its lyke we hear the "catchers" talking and walking on top of us. so corny rights. i bet with you. 100% wont get caught one. waHAx. but sadly that wasnt my brilliant idea..

i dont know if you think back now how many risk-taking incidents happened at the playground. you think back on all the dumb stuffs you did. monkey bars can become a stunt bar in which you sit on top of it and think you own the world. lol. those slides. the circular type? supposed to slide through it. then came those people who slide on the top of the circular slides. dont know if you understand but wellx. then came the seesaw which had springs. utterly horrible aint it? and then brilliant souls added excitement to it. W00t. its the standing see-saw. waha. bad experience for me. fell back once before. back hurt for 3 days. but now im still alive and kicking. and for some they had the merry go round. wahax. that insane equipment can really make people PUKE. i repeat its PUKE lah. lol. oh oh. the swing. i dont know when did it become cool to stand on a swing. but its real dangerous lah.

w00t. all those danger in the playground. guess no one would remember if i didnt remind rights? ha. how many times our life were on the bricks. wahax.

and playground is a place which all kids should go. lol. without it, kids got no childhood.

and suddenly my mind is blank-

2006-06-03T14:09:00.000+08:00

just as i took two steps forward,
you pushed me ten steps back.

thanks ALOT

2006-06-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

oh wellx. finally back online. dont know why these few days i on the comp and in less than 10mins i get bored and go offline. rather watch wangzi bian qingwa. now on disc 15 already. fast right? OMGOSH. DACHANGJIN. bye.

2006-05-30T22:10:00.000+08:00

i have a serious attitude problem these days.
i dont know what to do about it.

people are pissing me off more than ever. and the problem is these people are not only people i know? i cant be angry with totally strangers who just do something badly.

i dont know why im angry. someone- help me.

2006-05-28T21:35:00.000+08:00

wellx. nothings really up with my life except that.

shevchenko has just left ac milan. but he din say he is going chelsea. wellx. if only man utd had enough money to buy him. he sure would go to man utd then some loser team with a noob manager who doesnt gain respect from any of his players. lousy noob.

The Ukrainian striker confirmed on Friday he wanted to leave Milan and the club's vice-president Adriano Galliani announced the Rossoneri would begin talks with Premiership champions Chelsea.

anyways i pierced my ear yea.. at first was thinking if i could just pierce one side first. den can wear cool cool earings. lols. but i think my mum would think im crazy. ahah. since cannot pierce double den i just pierce one x= lol. but i already pierced both ear le. wellx.

dont know why i cant really stand people attitude somehow? maybe my expectations are too high but. wellx, you get a job in service department can at least spare some attention to care on your attitude lah. -blah-

i think the world is too complex for me to understand. dont understand how people can have totally 2 different faces, attitudes, appearance. w00t. this is called WORLD we live in. WOWS.

bleagh-

good luck for all the peeps taking o level chinese baah. jiayou x) wei ni men da qi !!
smiles x)

2006-05-23T21:57:00.000+08:00

lolx. prom is driving everyone madd. really wonder how is the response this year.. didnt looked too good.. wellx. guess everyone is juz last minute lyke everyone else so just. sigHs.

yea. everyone says im slack. im trying to start work. need tyme to start my engine.

soccer fever getting into me le. the world cup is so HOT. cant resist.. englang jiayou ! you can bring the glory of 40 years ago back into the reality.. gogoGO ! millions billions of fan supporting all the way !

im bored of the idea. wellx.

just. s i a n .

2006-05-23T17:09:00.000+08:00

heyhey. everyone go rate this skin okays.
click on the comments area.. thanks x)

ha. this pretty zilian skin over my name.. anyway the black words IS my name lah. and the oranger words is honeystars.. for you info.. this is done solely by ME myself and I. ha. i use photoshop try billion and one times to get the strokes write.. drawn by my mouse de k.

i've juz diagnosed myself with the new disease called: selective memory loss.

this is part of your left brain in which you cant control what you will forget and you can only remember what your right brain remembers.. yea. if you still dont understand. consult me, although i havent found a cure for this disease..

wellx. oral came and go. i hope the cher wasnt sacar-ing me. wows. wish wish.

i dont know if you can load the music. but its I believe the song yea. very nice..

wellx. i dont know why. but.

memories are quite easy to forget when you dont remember them once in a while..

wellx. i'll keep trying x) i'll still try.

daah. comment-

2006-05-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

oh. i didnt want to blog at first but 02 jam is full lyke wth?

let me play to vent my anger also cannot.

i dont know why im crazy. i dont know why im mad. i dont know why im angry either. i just am NOW.
craps.

heard rooney recovered. dont know how true is this information.
i hate betrayers. but wellx. if players go chelsea. their game is as good as over. lets see where would ballack be in few more years. prolly not even on the bench. wha. i really cant imagine i supported a betrayer lyke michael ballack.

please please.shevchenko dont sign. though i know chances are vv slim.

i've found a way to cool down. thanks angelique (x

2006-05-20T11:31:00.000+08:00

quote by thiery henry: "I am staying to play longer for the club that I love. I won't lie, at one point it (leaving), did cross my mind. But I am a guy who thinks with his heart. And my heart told me to say."hmms. can u read that? read that? thiery henry. how many football players would say such stuffs lah. where got any other player more loyal den this. aniway. i say this ah.I AM A MANCHESTER UNITED FAN OKAY. GET CLEAR OF THIS.but im fully in respect of arsenal. arsenal as a reasonable manager and the whole team is humble. they lose, they didnt blame anyone. remember the man utd vs arsenal match? arsene wenger said " man utd deserved to win cause they played better. "would you ever hear this from some id ten plus person lyke mourinho? that loser. you see. i told you thiery henry wont leave. I believe that he is loyal to arsenal. he is one respectable player. he is not tempted by money unlyke some people lyke ballack. although im happy that i can watch him play in EPL lah. but haish, it certainly proof how $_$ he is. now my only hope is dat shevchenko dont go over to chelsea although i really hope to see him play in EPL. but chelsea is the only club that can afford him. wellx. hope that man utd the person would strike lottery.. w00t. den joy to the world x))sad that van nisteroyl is leaving lah but if his talent in man utd is not appretiated den also no choice bah.. let him go for higher ground bahh. think man utd nid a better midfielder until alan smith gets back on track..world cup is coming and wellx. even pele says england has chance to play in the final. wayne rooney will own the world cup if he plays but i think 4 years can also wait for him to show is power and talent. ha. wonder why people can have so much talents. the show: ai zai yang guang li.hmms. 9/15 liaos.. wellx. the show is getting horrid with the stoopid bad guy becoming scheming and everything but wellx. its really damn touching for the girl to be with the guy who accidentally killed her ex-fiancee. haish. hope i don cry when that happpen. lols. i dont think i would. know ending liao cry wad cry. lols.this is the female doctor and the guy the military guy. i copied this. read if interested.
Synopsis
Kang Suk-min is a marine and he is the commander of a ship. He is an orphan and brought his sister up single handedly. His sister Soo-jin is a medical undergraduate, and she shares a very close and tight bond with her brother.
Soo-jin was hospitalized due to acute appendicitis, and in his over eagerness to secure medical attention for Soo-jin, Suk-min meets and offends Dr Jun Hye-rin. Through another episode where Hye-rin helped Suk-min with a pregnant woman who went into labour, Suk-min is uncontrollably attracted to Hye-rin and decides to pursue her.
Hye-rin on the other hand is irritated and felt harassed by Suk-min. She finds Suk-min's straight forward nature, reckless and crazy. She is still mourning for her fiancée who died in a car accident a year ago. She tried to discourage and avoid Suk-min but to no avail.
On the other hand, Hye-rins senior Dr Lee Seung-ha is also in love with Hye-rin since college days. He tries to constantly to hinder Suk-min in his pursue, but Suk-min is helped by Nurse Jo who is in turn in love with Seung-ha.
Suk-mins persistence and kind character eventually touches Hye-rin. And Hye-rin was able to put her past behind her and starts to see Suk-min. Their relationship moved fairly quickly, and they were soon engaged to be married. Seung-ha continues relentlessly to come between them, even resorting to manipulating Hye-rin's father to score points.
Seung-ha found out that Suk-min was involved with Hye-rins dead fiancees accident. He twisted what happened and tried to implicate Suk-min with the accident. Although Hye-rin believe that Suk-min was trying to help during the accident, she also realizes that she is cant forget her ex-fiancee, and Suk-min is a constant reminder of him. She decides to break up with Suk-min, much to Suk-mins despair.
Hye-rins father sees through both Seung-ha and Suk-min. On his deathbed, he tells Seung-ha that he wishes to see Hye-rin marry Suk-min. But Seung-ha made use of the situation to his advantage and forces Hye-rin to marry him instead.
All those around, even Nurse Jo reveals to Suk-min the secret about Hye-rins fiancees death, try to help Suk-min win Hye-rin back. But despite all these, Suk-min wishes that Hye-rin come back only if she loves him and not because of any other reason.
On the day of Hye-rin intended wedding to Seung-ha, Suk-min is critically injured while rescuing passengers from an ocean linerokay i cant stand it anymore. im watching the last episode. i cant bear to see them break up. daah.

2006-05-17T19:06:00.000+08:00

learn to shut up
learn to shut up
learn to shut up
learn to shut up

yea. i know i must learn to shut up. somebody stop me.
sigh sigh sigh.

i have freakingly said too many wrong things these two days. when the hell will i stop.

wellx.

lyke i said this is the exams which i just.

take it easy and get done with it.
learn my mistakes and remember it.

so everyone just think the same way k? i know its hard lah.
im a normal person and yes i do cry over results but, at the end of the day. what do we get out of crying? i don't say crying is wrong. i cry too. but, just think of what your tears are worth.

are your tears worth anything much lyke examinations?
just stay strong. there are other ways to let that emotion of anger, disappointment out.
wellx. but if you still say tears is the best way. then let it be.

crying is not a sign of feeling weak. crying in a way to express sadness.

wellx. so lets say miracles do happen once in a while.
dont give up hope.
its lyke i've been screwing my languages eversince i stepped into this school.

confidence is half the battle won.
over confidence is wellx - gg.

Daah. watching this show called into the sun. chinese is ai zai yang guang li. wellx. theres this damn qian bian ren wu which i really wanna slap in the show. but wellx. the ending is happy ending. so i guess i'll carry on watching.

the stoopid book i read today in school. sigh. sad ending i mean no ending. the guy in the end hun mi bu xing. den the girl was lyke aiyah it ended with the right here waiting song. daah. den the other guy ended off with his old girlfriend i guess.. hmMms. so end of the story with perseverence blah the younger boi did it. lols. craps. but no ending = sad ending. aiyoh!

dramas with happy ending:
1. kai lang shao nv cheng gong ji x) jang na ra act one. nice nice.
2. wang zi bian qing wa x) ming dao !!
3. tian guo de jia yi x) wang xin ling and mingdao that show. the ending is hilarious lah. damn weird and exotic. LOL.
4.da chang jing. daahh.
5.li wu. some korean drama.
6.MVP. wahahha. but the ending should be longer..

aiyas. count me sadistic or wadeva. i cant watch show with sad ending. believe it or not. i refuesed to watch qiu tian de tong hua after the 5th disc. too sad to continue. wahah. wad craps.

okay the show is getting hilarious. damn funny. funny funny.

hate the stoopid bad guy. condemn him !!

`recently quite sad that heard some people smoke lah and wellx. the saddest thing i heard was
"i feel so useless. my best friend has started to smoke. and i can't do crap about it."

when i saw this i was lyke - speechless.

wellx.
arsenal lost and i lost 2 bucks. blahx. dont know why i slept so little last night but not really tired. ha. watch until i fall asleep.. after first half i doze off thinking that arsenal would defend well. REFEREE KAYU. wad STOOPID RED CARD LOR. HE DONT EVEN DESERVE IT. IT WAS ACCIDENTAL. referee KAYU. i bet with u he sure tio complain de.

omgosh omgosh.
HENRY MIGHT NOT BE LEAVING.

actually the army uniform is really cool lah. i mean the formal one. not the green one. ha. looks great 24/7 cann.

read a book today they say when a girl shi lian only got 2 methods to cheer up. one is to go on a holiday. the second one is go on a shopping spree with money. ha. i duno how true is all these though. wellx.

2006-05-16T16:44:00.000+08:00

this is the exam which i screwed up the most.
this is the exam which i took the papers most calm.
this is the exam where i havent shed tears yet.
this is the exam which i think i put in the most effort for.

i have no idea why i fuking did so badly.

chill everyone.
the whole world is feeling the same way man.
now my only motivation is to.

watch arsenal trash barcel on thursday morning. and no. henry wont leave.
my only wish now is to watch chelsea fall next season. FALL.FALLFALL

who cares even if they get relegated.

people say when u start recalling the past memories it means u are getting old.
this only means i am getting very very old.

i duno how the freaking hell someone can get pissed off when i merely typed something which i din mean it and apologised already lah. wad the-

blah blah blah blah blah.

i duno why bad things always come when my mood is not so bad.
blah. wadeva.

its pissing me off.

2006-05-15T21:09:00.000+08:00

wonder why i am never satisfied with any single drama i watched.
except maybe wangzibianqingwa.
craps. cause it was a happy ending. how can i not be satisfied.

i guess its hard to please me x=

sighs. andriy shevchenko. please dont dont dont ever go to chelsea please.
my idol please dont go.

i used to support ballack but now. im having 2nd thoughts about him. $_$ blahs.

WORLD CUP GERMANY 2006

`here i come

~go ENGLAND: best time since 1966.
jiayou on recovering rooney !

haiyo. what happen to juventus. waha. i lyke doing soccer update liddat x=
craps craps. okay move on.

so sian. i cant play simtower. why why why why why why why.

i play 02jam until my fingers wanna break liaos.

haaa. somehow i really wonder why scripwriters love to write love triangles. i find it damn sian lah. sian sian sian. its irritatingly irritating. someone must get hurt in the end? lolx.

haiyo. i duno wad to continue le. today got no inspiration.

2006-05-15T19:32:00.000+08:00

haiyo haiyo haiyo.

i chiong 5 discs of stained glass its a korean drama lah.

haiyo.
the story started out so well but but but.

lousy ending lousy ending lousy ending.

2006-05-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

i hate my own stomach. blahx.
how can my own stomach betray me.. craps craps craps.
no idea how many hours i slept last night.
slept at 12. woke up woke up and woke up. it was 230.
took medicine. then went back to toss and turn.
it was 4+ took another medicine.
went parents room to sleep.
toss and turn.
why.

离开了我们小时候

those were the days, filled with innocence and laughter.
those were the days when future seemed so bright and ideas just keep flowing.
those were the days where we all yearn to grow up.
those were the days where nothing really mattered.
those were the days where promises were all empty.
those were the days when "why" didnt really mattered.
those were the days, which wont come back again.

those were the days, which i missed dearly.

those were the days, where i dont have to think twice before saying anything.
those were the days, where words dont really mean anything.
those were the days, where you could speak freely without hurting anyone.
those were the days, which left before i could capture all the good memories.

~those were the days.

`jiayou everyone for physics and geog paper ONE. the paper one sounds retarded. im going to school for 30mins assembly and 1 hour of paper. wow.

i cant install simtower. there's something wrong with my comp.

`stomach recover please. no more excess HCl please.

2006-05-11T21:57:00.000+08:00

lol. everyone tell me how you find this template. you can always leave a comment after each entry.
go go go x)

woaah. i took lyke less den 2 hours on it..
one of my fastest.. daah.

2006-05-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

yea bacck to my blogg. ha. actually my main topic is still on what's more to life lah. lol. was reading this article in the chinese newspaper juz noww. its on a topic on "xin4 fu3" ha. i have no idea wads the direct translation to it. i would say is to be happy and lucky. lols.
so it was quoted for there.
`some ppl think that having never ending money in your wallet is xin fu.
`some ppl think that having a long lasting and sweet romance is xin fu.
`some ppl think that having a roof over your head and not starving is xin fu.
`some ppl think that being love by ppl is more xin fu then u love ppl.
`some ppl think that daah. i forgotten already.

so i ask now, do u feel that you are xin fu??

whats more to life? to feel xin fu, blessed and lucky.
we are lucky to be born on this earth.

whats more to life? to win that seat in parliment? to score 6-pointer for O'levels? to earn your first million by 30? to reach the top position in your career? someone tell me whats more to life.

how do u measure successes.
what matters at the end of your life?
when you are inside ur coffin, and you spirit reflects upon your body. will you spirit smile and say "my life is complete. i can leave peacefully now." or, will your spirit cry and say " why didnt i live longer? so many things left incomplete."

how do u measure if your life is complete? what must you do to make your life complete?

questions left unanswered.

2006-05-05T18:26:00.000+08:00

woaah. wasnt online since april 22nd. hmms. thats lyke last last saturdayy daah. actually its not i dowanna come online. lols. last weekend tio stomach gastric flu wadeva its called. lol. dont ask me why i had it yea. its lyke i ate lah. and craps. daaaah. anyway my horror is OVER. dont wanna remind myself. lol. stuck in bed hugging my pillow lyke 24/7. wasted my precious time of studying to a dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb illness.

duno why these few days exam also think about quite alot stuffs yea. its lyke. duno why when i walking home one day i started asking myself. what do i want out of life? lols. its lyke. the game sims 2. ha. when the child reached teenage years. must decide what he or she wants to achieve in life.. so its lyke the options are popularity, knowledge, achieve the highest in your career, one is ultimate flirt in life and family.. lols. so what do people want out of life? really a tough question to think about yea.

anyone got any games to lend? erms. lol. actually im looking for SIMTOWER.. i miss the game lots lah. anyone know where to buy also tell me yea.. desperately looking for it.

anyone got games to lend?
counter strike to heroes might and magic to anything under the sun.. age of empires? or pyramids? civilisations? lol. these type of games anyone got? contact me yea if got.. lol.

haish. gotta go tuition for duno why. lols. go there relax myself abit lah. tuition now is very amusing. i think my class is the slackest O level class in the entire world cann.

lol. i'll be back for my 2nd part.

2006-04-22T15:40:00.000+08:00

2006-04-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

the society we live in is kinda crap lah. dont know why many of us unknowingly condemn certain people lah. haish. be it on purpose or not.. sighs.

somehow really wonder how it feels lah. i know the feeling is horrible.
but. can there really be a stop to it?
lol. world would be a better place but, its that so easy to put a fullstop to such things?
dont really wanna list examples cause it really hurts as i rmB lah and..
i don't know how to help them but. but. thousand and one buts i may say. excuses?
maybe unknowingly.
daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

i didnt know grafitti can be so adorably style-d

die. why am i thinking of buying play mag.
lol. sparing a tout for my pocket.

sians. i think i gonna buy x=

2006-04-20T20:48:00.000+08:00

daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaH.
where have my tagboard gone to?
lolx. purposely take it out de.
why do i need tags for?
lolx. jk.
until i create a better skin which i find fits a tagboard.

stress stress stress.
lol.
i say im stress but i dont put in effort.
now sleeping later each night already.
but it was pretty dumb last night lah.
ya but something kinda happend last night?
it was 12midnight. i wasnt tired. but i went to sleep.
it sounds weird right? i mean not tired don sleep lah.
but den i duno why i tell myself something like,
"if you dont sleep, tmr u sleep in class even worse."
then i went to sleep.

i mean its lyke.
my life is being controlled by me in an attempt to overcome my studies?
argh. i duno wads happening lah.
maybe i feel the tension, stress, everything.
i don understand lah.
wanna go poly de.
den den den.
i really duno?
mx mum say she predict i cmf is go jc de.
i dunno about myself. its lyke.
daaaaah. i scared i changed.
people change.
me change.
daah. tell me who didnt.
kinda regretted and found it funny why my sec1 life can be so screwed up yet amusing at the same time.
sec2 life was fantastic. dont mind living it all over again.
daah. people change lah.

lol. stress stress stress.
the way i see my brothers mug for their university exam is horrible.
lol. i dowanna go university liao.
craps.
im juz talking nonsense. daah.

2006-04-15T17:18:00.000+08:00

i saw this from mx blog and decided to do for fun. lol.

7 random facts about me
`my name is Miss Lin Jiayu
`15 going on 16 on 01092006
`supports manchester united since young
`was a brownie den join guides and soon leaving it x((
`loves stars? i lyke the sky to have alot of stars. can walk with my head facing the sky on a dark dark night. looks retarded ain't it x=
`people say i sing out of tune?
`from pokeytoots

7 celebrity crushes
`edison chen guan xi [totally]
`jay chou jie lun
`adriano huang jun hui
`christiano ronaldo
`milk [niu-nai]
`xu meng ze [5566]
`pierre from simple plan

7 qualitites i want in a potential boyfriend
`cannot SMOKE or must kick the habit.
`know how to comfort ppl
`know how to make decisions
`i dont mind if he can cook
`watchs and support man utd? so wont quarrel nextime.
`know how to laugh
`normal

7 things that scares me
`horrible nightmares
`moodswings [my own and other ppl]
`results
`disappointment
`emotions
`disagreements
`sleepless nights.

7 random songs at the moment
`jia gei wo[since yesterday]
`superwomen
`breakaway [!!!]
`i never told you
`zu wo shen ri kuai le
`zhi dui ni shuo
`cao cao

7 things i like/love most
`teddybear
`m&ms
`kiki and lala
`edison chen's photo and images
`my jay chou poster
`my diary
`my neoprints

7 things i'll plan before i die
`see the northern lights
`see more shooting stars
`my campaign to ban smoking in the world x=
`meet edison chen before he grows too old
`my funeral
`build my time machine

7 things i say most
laugh
laugh
laugh
laugh
laugh
laugh
laugh

7 people who i want them to do this quiz
`adel
`clara
`clinton
`tessa
`yiting
`meiyee
`whoever reads my blog

daaah.
at first i wanted to blog abt pokeytoots.
den i read adel, clara, clinton and tessa's entry.
everything that i wanna say is all being said by them.

i shall end it off.

pokeytoots love pokeytoots and pokeytoots love pokeytoots too !

2006-04-13T19:14:00.000+08:00

wows. one week since i blogged. ha.
4 days since im last online.
lol.
i tried to restrict myself yea.

yea. pratically have nothing to do online lah.
so really no point to see myself being online without having anything to do.
yeaa.

hmms. duno why edison chen can suddenly pop up out of nowhere.
and now he's everywhere in my phone. lol.
sians. somehow i wonder why do people look good?
is it their genes or wad nia.

siala. lol my obsession x=

i tried not to sleep in class okay. i tried but.
today chem lesson.. haish. its abit tiring to put ur face up to look at the teacher.
so to kip awake, i copy her powerpoint slides which most of it can be found it the textbook?
just to keep awake-

suddenly i feel lyke changing template.
luck-

2006-04-06T18:50:00.000+08:00

hello hello everyone =)

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Daaah. i wan i wan i wan i wan ODM TREXI. daaaaaaaaH.

sometimes it feels very sian very sian very very very sian when.
when.
when.
when.
when.
when.
when.
when.
when.
when.
when.
when.

this is the number of 'WHENS' im feeling SIANS about.

--------

wellx. somehow there are tons and thousands of things i wanna scream about.
daaah.
there are a thousand and one things i wanna say.
but i cant.
bottle bottle bottle bottle.
and scream.

i need to go to the beach one day to scream out all my feelings inside me.

i think im getting old.
chi cher was saying that when one starts to recall old memories means you are getting old.
cause only old ppl do such stuffs.

even if that day when the time machine is invented, i guess all humans by nature aint zhizu.
wellx.
i duno wad else i want other den a time machine.
seems useful enough now.

but it sounds funny right. so many of us
wanna move back into the past.
thinking that we can change and not do certain mistakes.
but.
but.
what makes us think that we wont do the same mistake twice?
hmMs.
deep for thoughts i guess.

daaaaah.

write a simple song.
make you feel happier.
love is lyke a river.
waves and ripples are unavoidable.

write a simple song.
there's nothing special to it.
just like me,
so normal yet leaves a deep impression behind.

waha. find this some what familiar? daaah.

2006-04-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

i think im crazzy.

my obsession with watchin soccer is too crazy now.
manchester united. lol.
supported that since i was pri4.
i think.

now the prob is.
im not only watching manchester united matches.
im watching those clubs who would affect man utd's progress.
or exciting matches with brilliant players.
lyke now im anxious over chelsea's matches.
cause every mistake chelsea makes will lead to man utd greater chances of ownning the league.
every mistake man utd make will cause liverpool to take over.
sighs.
evil it may be. watching soccer nothing goods come out lah.
i'll start scolding people.
cursing people.
friendly curses though.
maybe they are not really curses lah.
just suanning the player lyke hell.
to make myself feel better for man utd x=

daaah. lucky my O's are not affected by much.
the premiership matches will be at its starting.
and i wont really care.
wellx i would but.

OMGOSH. HENRY SCORED AGAIN !
sighs.
i know its wrong for me to support henry cause he's from arsenal.
but i really support talent.
he's real talent.
and has loyalty too alright.
he declared IT IS NOT ABOUT THE MONEY.
yea yea.

nakata din played for bolton. lol.
haish. much as i think saha should play for man utd.
i still wan van nistelrooy to play.
i wan park to play but i wanna see c. ronaldo on the pitch. lol.
i miss alan smith. not his skills.
but he has added much entertainment to the match.
see him foul and all that is damn amusing.

then i ask myself again.
im a girl why should i be so into soccer.
blaaaaaaaaaaaah.
why must soccer be regarded as a boy's sport.
daaaaaaaaah.

jiayou man utd ! now its 1-1.

2006-04-01T16:45:00.000+08:00

wahh x=

sians. i tried to do maths and i think i did like 3 questions and for all 3 i got wrong answers.
daah.
wonders why my maths is so bad.

blahh.
nxt week got AMATHS chinese and HISTORY.
i duno much about history but. sighs.
prolly think the SS marks will demoralise me for thursday history test.

daah.
cross fingers.
duno why im not at all excited over campus superstar.
dont even go to the website le.
its so boring without adriano.
sighs.

man utd vs bolton tonight.
exciting !
so the newsoaper says man utd have chance of winning first.
whee.

lol. actually i find myself vv funny.
i have like man utd since p4 i THINK.
bro's influence as usual.
and suddenly in sec2 sec3 become more hiongg in watching soccer.
lalas.

cant wait for worldcup. i think its 70more days to worldcup.
lol. a month to mid years. and 212 days to o levels i think.
first paper is hcl. den 1 more week den start actual think SS.

craps. i need 1 more year to study for O's. i wan wait for 1 more year !

daaah. i wanna buy TIME. time time time.

chances & fate.

2006-03-29T19:13:00.000+08:00

told myself not to get online.
blah.

kinda hate bio more and more.
the facts just dont get in at all.

blahblahs.
bio is driving me nuts.

heard that adriano lost by 40votes to make it to the grand final.
40 votes is like only $24. $24 divided by the huge number of his fans.

i guess if everyone contributed just a CENT he would make it through.
im sure his fan base is more den 2400.
im amused by the comments people write on campus superstar the website.
like. posers. lol. den renfred declared that he wont and didnt post at all.
so still got ppl wan act like him.
its really amusing to read such stuffs.
i dunno why.

sians. adriano is out.
dont really have such much interest lah.
aniway heard that he would take part in project superstar.

whee^

bio bio bio = crazy

2006-03-28T15:37:00.000+08:00

decided to change my blogging style yea. now its gonna be short and sweet.

i'll try.

today my feelings are, pissed. disappointed. and regretful. daah.

i saw that sweet disepenser that day.
why didnt i buy. i knew i would like it.
why didnt it wait for me.
no fate x=
i hope it will be back in stock.

somehow this incident really makes me realised how indecisive i was.
daaah.
why cant i try to make decisions.
sometimes i wish i could just dont care about everyone anyone at all.
and do things the way i want it to be.
but i know people would be unhappy.

then you ask me why i bothered if they would be unhappy.
they are family members/friends/acquaintance/strangers.
i hate an unhappy world.
im someone who needs people around me to be happy.
or i would try to make people around me happy.
despite the fact if i aint.
contradicting?

let's take it that example someone totally HATES studying.
if that person does things his OWN way.
he would just quit school.
but by doing so he would disappoint his parents/teachers.
maybe you can say that it is HIS life.
and he should do everything anyway he wanted it to be.

then, you remember.
you live in the world.
the world dont and will never live for you.

so end of the day.
which is the best way out.
decisions?

-empty-

"The best way to predict your future is to create it."

Unknown

2006-03-26T19:07:00.000+08:00

hmms. i was deciding on whether to blog or nott. daah. so wad am i doing now. lol.

actually i also have nothing much to say. just that. ahh. these few days my mood high high low low de. also duno wad. lyke sin and cos graph liddat. go up come down den go up den come dowan again. hmms.

yesterday walking to interchange that tyme the sky had alot of stars. maybe no one could realised but darn. maybe its not alot. but its more den the miserable less den 7 during dat day camp. its lyke. hmms. chio? sighs. why no one noticed it? cause they werent bright. i juz realised that when i walk to interchange the sky there not much light so its darrk which makes it very easy to spot starss. den later when i reach my bus stop rights. den i alight. den later i cannot see any stars lah. stoopid lights so bright. den i was wondering lyke the clouds so fast come meeh. den later i walk home to that ulu park connecter denn became very dark. den later. i walked with my head up. daah. for all my years of my life. i have been walking with my head facing the ground. i duno why. bad habit but i walking home alone always head face down de. look at the ground. haish. i din realised the wonders of the skyy. how nice the sky is with stars, despite them being not bright. daah. stars stars stars my dears =) okay lah. it was retarded for me to walk with my head up lehh. so so so weird right? lol. lucky never neck strain. the walk home was barely 5 mins lah. lol. actually its 3mins and 33seconds from the bus stop. lol.

daaah. i dowan studdy. i wanna see edison chen. adriano wanna be back up also can. lol. i think im crazzy. ahh. jay music's live in me. so i don have to see him. got 2 pairs of his eyes staring at me while is tudy okay. so scary. ahah. i got jay chou plastic bag also. jay chou on my notebook. lol.

crazy crazy crazy. i shall look for my motivation to study noww. daah. EDISON CHEN MTV !

2006-03-23T19:11:00.000+08:00

wah. speechless to describe my feelings now. today is really a _______ day. so many people bad mood. wellx.

adriano is out and i don think i wanna watch campus superstar anymore. maybe i would watch. but wellx. im not that excited anymore.

yea. don lyke people who NATO. daaah. NATO. blahblahblahblah.

I WAN ADRIANO BACK IN CAMPUS SUPERSTAR. this is withdrawal symptoms. damns. WHY DIDNT U VOTE? haish. its over le x= wellx.

i hate tests. i hate tests. i dowanna studdy. tests are boring. boring boring. damn. 6 more months. i think its 221 more days. im not sure. lol.

2006-03-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

die die die. edison chen ! ! lolx. okay im half crazzy.

why is edison chen looking so good? lols.

ahh. monday is coming. jiayou adriano. now got man utd match. jiayou man utd. gonna watch it soon i guess.

i concluded that dota is really irrestibly addictive. sigh. so many ppl fallen to the trap of wasting ur electricity on it. lol.

OWNING. sians. edison chen is owning. how many girls he electric shocked le. lol. crazy me.

im gonna die for Social Studies lah. sians sians.

2006-03-17T23:08:00.000+08:00

记得两千年的夏天
一起躺在海边聊天
发现有你在我身边
整个气氛悠闲
仿佛全世界都在看着我们手牵手

一起走向远方的夕阳
你的头靠着我的肩膀
好像天堂就在我的心房
给你的爱情付出越多越舒畅
怎么也想不到秋天里解散

怎么也想不到他拍了一支广告
跟着跑到香港
工作开始繁忙
思念却一如往常
他是否记错了她的地址
除非她搬家了
他心中有好多东西

多么想跟她讲
将来不知会不会见你
我始终还不能原谅自己
我为什么没阻止你离去
我真的好想你

i never told you
i wanna hold you
若能见你一面
我想说声抱歉
i never told you
i wanna hold you
宁愿放弃一切
让你留在我身边

突然收到一通电话
看到很熟悉的号码
多么希望听到你的"好吗"
原来是个陌生人回我电话
检查屏幕上的号码
虽然就是你的"un hun"
表示你已经不再用这个电话
这是我唯一联络你的方法
巧合事件能否发生在我身上
可知道我已经不抱任何希望

if you and me were together
together will be 4 ever
i got to believe
i got to believe
i got to believe
that the sun will shine another day

2006-03-15T19:53:00.000+08:00

自由

也许会恨你
我知道我的脾气不是很好
也许不一定
我知道我还是一样爱着你
打开一瓶红色的酒
看着金鱼游来游去
是否我门都想要自由

我没有关系
你可以假装没事离开这里
一切好安静
我只是想把情绪好好压抑
到底谁会先说再见
我知道我一定哭泣
走的时候记得说爱我爱我

说爱我说爱我
难道你不再爱我
我的泪滴下来
你从来不曾看过
为什么为什么
爱情让人变沉重
没有人告诉我
原来不是我想像
不要回来
你已经自由了
我也已经自由了

im in love with every song adriano sings. lol.

2006-03-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

hmms. maybe its really too much in chasing idols or people i think its talented.

campus superstar - adriano huang jun hui. wow. my first singapore soul i ever really supported =x was so closed to him yesterday. and he waved. behind me. could have tried for his autograph. i had no paper. no pen. but my cousins got. and i got the photo of his autograph.

omgosh. why am i actually feeling sad. i was hearing "jia gei wo" by adriano. im really so afraid that he might get out. im afraid + scared + worried about adriano.

maybe i shouldnt even have started this craze.

some people like me who never believed in voting. actually got scared, worried and voted once. history moment sias. 60cents leh. nvm. it's only 1 mentos sweet.

i really dowan nxt week to come. oh gosh im too attached. i dowanna wake up with sore eyes on nxt tuesday morning. how how how how.

patrol outing was funny. the water snails thingy. the sea part rawks. though the water is pathetically dirty. the float rawks ! and the salt sucks. lol. so funny. last part we got buried. 4 sec4s tio buried. and stuck. damn funny lah think about it. aha.

and then the 'feng' song came into my head again. when i think about feng. i think abt yuyang. when i think abt yuyang. i would think about adriano tear-ing. when i think abt adriano tear-ingg.. how can u tell me not to be sad?

i dowan campus superstar to end. i really proud of all the campus super star peeps lah. the major change in yuyang. from the 'dao' and 'cool' guy, he has changed to the 'ahbeng trying to be friendly' guy. hees. and adriano. from the 'scared to have eye contact with audience' in the jia gei wo song. he sang it with so much emotion. but no eye contact with audience. somehow felt that he got too drifted away in the song. to the guy who know how to move the audience with his "my anata" and his so damn cute and cheecky smile. w00t. to the forget lyrics also can act cute trick. lols. he really rawks :) im proud of him already. but i would still be sad if he had to leave.

i think i dreamt about me see-ing adriano last night. i mean i did see him but that dream was lyke some what special. lol. maybe its i wanna see adriano wanna see until i dreamt that i saw him. lol. but that was the final part of the dream. begining i forget le.

i miss adriano already. it was only yesterday x=

2006-03-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

233 days and couting. lols. 233/8 approx 30 days for 1 subj. ahha. crazy. i dowan take o levels le.

so got back ca1 results - disappointed but expected lah. to all those people who screwed up just dont care okay. i have concluded that this ca1 is an unfair judgement to our abilities. and this is not important. what matters its just the O's. ah. so jiayous everyone !

i decided to study business in singapore poly. i cant accept the life of JC and how cut-off points is getting lower and lower. i dowana stress myself up over A levels. i see more benefits in going to a polytechnic. i hate the new system of JC. only allow me to take one maths. surely i can Ace a humans lah. wellx. poly here i come !

sometimes rights. the harder something is in reach of you. one would tend to try harder to get that thing right. like newton's law. someone push hard. the other person must also push as hard to balance the forces mah. wellx.

im having muscle ache thanks to the newspaper cip thing. lol. and that is the place i found my PINK monkey. lalas. and took neos after that. saw so many people in the neos shop and i happen to see some gay stuffs which i aint supposed to see though. x=

the holidays is starting and i should be doing my homework. lol. which i say every holiday but no action seems to start yea.

I WANT SOME RAIN SOON. the weather is killing me. really. sighs sighs sighs.

i wish, i hope. when ?

hope i'll get to see adriano on monday ! yay.

2006-03-08T20:36:00.000+08:00

235 days and counting. lol. im crazy.

the art of being dao.

actually i duno how but i decided to attempt to blog on it and see what it will turn out to be like.

what i have to start learning now.

1.stop SMILING. its totally impossible somehow lah. im the type of people who anything also anyhow smile or laugh one and from wellx maybe soon. i shall learn to stop smiling already. i've decided that i shouldnt be that friendly anymore. daoness is an attitude and not many people can succeed in doing so.

2.dont talk to people. this is another one totally impossible thing lah. how often do u see me shut myself up at a corner? sighs. i shall attempt to tryy i guess. but when i really shut up everyone would prolly ask me if i am okay or not. sighs. maybe next time when u see me really shutting up. dont talk to me.

3.learn to isolate yourself. this is prolly the one i would be most success in. i wanna lock myself up in a room.

4.look away from people's eye when you walk so there wont be a EYE CONTACT.

kinda jus heard some stuffs i din really wanna hear. yea. memories. unforgettable but worth keeping? get out of me.

im lazy to blog. well.

2006-03-07T19:03:00.000+08:00

236 more days to o levels and counting. i think. the first paper is HCL. im scared. so is everyone.

2006-03-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

wooah. my official 100th post. lols. [who cares?] ahh. it's just another normal day. maybe wellx. today my mood a lil down but wellx.

wait. waiting. waited. baaah. i hate and dread friday. wad rubbish PTC. hope my parents wont go. lols. later they ask the cher why my daugther l1r5 can suddenly shoot so high like rocket like that. den later the comments would be. she has been falling asleep in class [ NOT ON PURPOSE ] i strive to pay attention in class everyday. and she has been doodling. lols. and doing other subjects homework during lesson time especiall maths. and she reads books especially chinese book in the middle of no where. blah. but i doubt my parents would go though. im having maths tuition. its a friday after all. daah.

what is the big deal with dota man? so many girls are complaining that guys are too hook to dota that they simply go online and change their status to busy and they prolly reply you only once or twice throughout the whole time u online or they dont reply at all. i have more then 4 such people in my contact list. lols. so i shall analyze wad is dota for everyone who doest know.

Defence Of The Ancient. [DOTA]
this game started let's say. i rmb playing it 2 year ago in 2004. so it must have been pretty long. had many version and the lastime i played was 6.10. i played as it evolved from 5.84 to 6.10. don't ask me why i dont play well in dota cause. i have some how accepted the facts that genes is an important factor. if you are good in it you are. if u just dont have the talent u just dont have it. lols. anyway, DOTA is a custom game of WARCRAFT 3 which came out in 2002 and has been a very very popular game since then. and when i say popular it really is lahs. hmms. maybe not as popular as Counter Strike lah. okay so back to the game. what it is? it is normally a 5 v 5 game in which seperated into two teams, scourge and sentinal. the trees and the undeads. lol. den they choose hero. den they start fighting. den fight fight. see who can get the most kills. so its like. teamwork is very importang lah. and we must push push push and try to push into other people's base and destroy all their buildings lah. ya den i duno why. i have this feeling the sentinal always win. hmms. it is a biased opinion lah so wellx. through this game. it is really a game where jian4-ness is a SKILL. if u backstab people in the game. nobody would say u are evil. lols. except me lah. i scold the backstabber every single time i get whacked. lols. hmms. playing with me is horrible lah. eh btw it is backstab ur enemies. not ur frens. don get mistaken. teamwork is still the overall importance okay. wellx. i do type alot and alot and wellx. but i don exactly used those rude languages most ppl use. ya den the heroes dat u control have skills lah. den they have either strength, agility or intelligence blah blah. i have to admit dat i din noe all these till.. not to long ago. end of last year. ahhh. lol den u must know how to use the best of the hero like how to focus lah. diff people got diff way of playing. it's like i play the character TINY the stone GIANT. those are the weird names. his strength is damn good. my bro says that i should train all my might on his strength so he can whack people. whereas another person says that since he so strong liao should train his agility. okay. i think every one now has question marks. lols. blaah.

so back to the game. #1. WHY IS IT ADDICTIVE? wellx. i don normally play it straight for the whole half a day but my bro simply plays it everyday. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY. i woke up at 5am one morning to use the toilet. HE WAS PLAYING DOTA. every saturday morning as far as i can rmb, HE IS ALWAYS PLAYING DOTA. he plays it every night. almost without fail. WHY? i dont see the joy in killing people. but i noe the sadness in dying and ur team mates simply just.. eh wait. somehow there is a tingling of happiness when a noob like me. kills someone lah. its a miracle for ME lah. cause normally i get whacked before people whack me so i play dota is very hum one. its just feel happy lah. then when someone get alot of kill. u will hear like.. "the senital are OWNNING" den it wld be at the screen den u will feel like woaaah. lols. den when the person duno got how many kills liao will have.. "wiiiiiiicked stick!" before that it was "dominating.." ahhh. fun fun fun ! maybe guys find the joy in owning people.

after playing dota for pretty long time and still not improving. i have seen the diff types of people who play. firstly. there are people who would ask u to leave a game if u simply suck. baaaH. on the other hand, there would be people to guide u along. but really. the games i really enjoy is those with very good teamwork. there must be a good leader lah in a game. and good team mates who warns people about back stabber. and den. it's fun for 3 heroes chasing after 1 hero in a game. great teamwork there. really. den there are stuffs like "gj"[good job] or "nice one" blah blah blah to motivate u when u kill someone. woooah. and then good team mates cooperate. they SHARE ITEMS. they TRUST EACH OTHER. and guess what? most of the time u play with the people is total strangers de lah. but it is sort of like a universal game lah. in people get along and trust each other. so its so coooooL.

okay next i shall go on to CLANS. it is sort of a group of people who get together to play lah. like a group of friends. they train to play against other clans. and really teamwork here lah. cause u will learn one another's weakness strong points blah blah. and very cooperative here. but once again. end of the day it is still a game. it's hard to bring this teamwork to our daily life. sighs.

once again. this game has its bad points too. people like me. always remain a noob its really not because that i really suck or what lah. this game has developed into a "NO NOOB PLACE" most ppl simply discriminate people lyke me. and seriously. when did h0neystars sounded like a guy's username. WHEN WHEN WHEN. TELL ME WHEN MAN. really make me realised guys are really dumb. but seriously. hint to a girl playing online gaming. seriously its not good to reveal that u are a girl online. just act on like u are a guy no matter how gay it is. not good to say that u are a girl. even if i think u very pro or own. still say u girl is really like. wellx. dono how to say. ask other guys to explain. lols. their pride would be shattered nia. lols. blah i no idea wad i talking about.

anyways. i quit dota since end of jan after CNY. and wellx. hopefully i'll never get back to it ever again. okay maybe nort. maybe i play once in a while. i really hope i would improve lah. but STUDIES ARE MORE IMPORTANT AND THE O LEVELS ARE COMING WHICH MAKES EVERYTHING SOUNDS WORSE DEN FREAKY.

im tired. say bye to my 100th entry. baah.

2006-03-01T18:44:00.002+08:00

this is my 99th entry. guess my 100th entry would be on friday nights. ha. actually abit dumb lah. 100th entry so what? got people read meh. blah. actually people read don read no big deal lah. the thing is that it's for me to remember my stuffs yea. lols. so its for ME. lol. selfish girl xD

so many things have happen yea.

I. Manchester United won carling cup. 4-0. direct trash rights against wigan. wellx. this match alot of things happen lah. firstly, van nisteroyl din play which is quite sad lah. would have own more in the 1st half. i went to sleep after 1st half so pretty sad lah cause i heard something great about ronaldo happen in the 2nd half. which i didnt watch which makes me so jealous the next day ! hmMs. wellx. no fate x= lols. fate says i shouldnt get to see it. mmm. den the next thing was the "for u smudge" shirt they wore. it's like so good team spirit? wonder who's suggestion it was. wellx. alan smith got injured quite badly against the liverpool match few weeks back. den they wore the shirt like everyone wore lah. den so sad that he is missing. with alan smith in the match it's always more exciting. anyway i this year also get to know manchester united more. know how good park is. still waiting for his glorious first goal. he had assisted so much le.

II. I have new idol ! i know abit betrayal lah but he is really good. thiery henry xD arsenal's captain and a very good player nia. know how to dribble pass 3 def and score !! i hope he doesnt go over to italian league. really. and wow. real wanna buy henry over and exchange for ronaldo? lols. henry should remain faithful to arsenal and not go ! if henry really goes. my dear arsenal. i duno where u would be. lols.

III. Chelsea wanna buy shevchenko for FIFTY MILLION? crazy? he's a good player. don really mind see-ing playing on EPL cause pathetic ESPN only have epl matches most of the time. shevchenko really rawks lah. he is so so so so good. lols. i think i have a feeling i spelt their names wrongly. hmms. correct me if anyone can yea. i think man utd should buy a new defender. they need one. hmms. anyway is leeds utd back up? i hope they are. they are really good yea. or once good. hmms.

IV. Okay. enough about shocking soccer. hees. suddenly my mind is blank. hmms. got the i-weekly liaos. i think everyone is buying it. lols. sometimes really peifu those people lah. its like, they really get emotionally hurt at times. i hear so many people critising certain people den i think that they hear is also quite sad one lah. den i read liao also feeling quite sad de. hmms. so i guess. wellx. everyone try not to shatter those hopefuls hearts k. dont say anything bad about anyone. keep it to urself or dont even have that thought at all. it's not easy to be them =x

V. Edison Chen is getting into me. lols. damn. why? but jay chou will always be #1. i really hope he wont get trouble with the police. cant they enjoy his wonderful music more den see-ing him suffering in army? maybe he'll make it be in army, you'll never know. lols. imagine him become OFFICER CHOU. lols. okay it sounded terrible x= mms.

VI. I am lacking the motivation to study. the number 16 haunts me. and i duno why i aint not studying? i chose comp over my work just now. lols. i stare at my work. walk down and on the comp. waha. SLACKER. how how. how can a slacker motivate a slacker. x=

VII. How come there are some things I wanna do but never can do. feel very pathetic when aims are not met. wellx. aims aims aims and aims. they are really reachable. maybe i need to jump higher. blaaah. im bored. bored bored bored. i wanna get done with it !! screams screams..

blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah. there's a thousand words that i could say. maybe those words just couldnt pattern out wellx. daah.

2006-02-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

wows. gonna celebrate my 100th entry soon. never did i have a blog for so long.. wellx. so much memories. wonder when will i be free enough to read from first entry to the last. lols. mmms. life life life life. adriano rawks x) so sad. must wait for 2 more weeks to see his performance.

i havent got bored of that song yet.

life is very sian lehh. u'll never know when u gonna die is very sian one. like my dream liddat. been getting very weird dreams recently. had this dream about 2 people selling beansprouts at the market. 1 sell at 10cents. 1 sell at 40cents. lols. wad crappy dream.

im looking forward to buy JJ's album. wonder when got time and money. lols.how ah. there is something right now i wanna do but i don dare. lol.

nvm. i shall keep it the normal practice. mmms. the song jia gei wo is in my head now. 10 years later my boifren sing to me i cmf marry him one. lols. baaah. the song is so sweet nehh. i have a soft spot for sweet songs.

ahhha. i havent touch dota for so long. and i might not ever again i guess? but i think some psycho will be bored and ask me to play.

lols. gunbound ahh. where has it been man. thinking back on all the games i used to play..it first started off with Half-life. lolx. i attempted to play it in p4. ya i played. with computer. and apparently i forgot if i was good at it. my first time entering a lan cafe was at sec2. was that late or early. lols. and i only played once so far. lol. i remember there was warcraft 2 during that time. think i attempted to play cause keep watching my bro play neh.

wait wait. in pri3. there was this SIM craze. SIM TOWER. suddenly i feel lyke playing it now. totally duno where the CD. then there was SIMFARM, SIMCITY, SIMPARK, THEME HOSPITAL, THEME PARK. woooo. my childhood memory games sias. theme hospital was fun. i rmb the people dying one. lols. i think i still have SIMPARK the cd with me. SIMFARM rawks. i like it alot. but my crops kip dying.

ha. den in primary 5 was starcraft. eh no p4. protons were my favourite. den must collect gold blah blah. starcraft rawks. i think i completed the campaign. it was pretty challenging to do so. then there was diablo2. my favourite was the soceress. i always played her. lol. i never completed act2. waha. now u noe how failure i am at blizzard games yea. diablo rawks though. i love the box that allow u to merge items. lols. my favourite thing. den my bro always laugh at me cause i anyhow mix and match items.

hmms.. warcraft 3 was released in primary 6. i rmb myself playing it at 6am in the morning which i was supposed to receive my PSLE result. there was a soccer match i thinkk. ha. den i was playing it. it was the normal game lastime lah. i was playing the bone dragon.. undead race. my favourite. eh wait wait. in between duno when got the sims. it became my favourite game ! lols. the sims. now got sims2. used to play it few hours like crazy till my neck ache last year. lols. and then warcraft started to became boring cause the only custom map there was was the.. sheep game. lols. and then in sec1, i started getting trashed in 1 v 1 for normal game. lols. some people using tower rush against me. but i duno why i could only use that tatic against computer. eeeey. mmm.

then in sec1 end of year eh no. ard july? i started playing gunbound. it was gunbound fun fun fun and fun. had alot of friends in gunbound. lols. eh wait. there was neopets from p4 !! had an active guild. lols.

i remember sias. neopets my old love ! and how my neopets get hacked time and time again. i remember one time my password was ihatehackers. den at a point of time it was simpleplanrawks. who the hell could hack nia. don worry. im not that dumb now on PWs. lol.

then in sec2 i started playing dota again. there was the new thing called dota. lols. at the time. 1 v 1 was very boring. boring until cannot boring. wait wait. i love to play mauls lastime ! mauls are fun. i like to maze. i like to be pink or green. very funn.

my gaming life very filled rights. ahh. i forgot to mention heroes 3 and heroes 5. lols. the black dragon and their cheats. we used to play every saturday at cousin house. whoever house we were in. we'll bring the CD aroundd. den it's so frigging fun. oooo ! there was age of empires too ! i rmb vv fun cause can change the way people stand. den i find it vv amusing. haish. im still waiting for my civilisations. im waiting for the person who said will lend me. i waited and im still waiting. hmms. wait wait. still got one time i was in love with premier manager. someone was supposed to lend me that too x= it was then my love for manchester united grew. and i realised that shevchenko is a good player. im looking forward to world cup. cnt wait to see my idols play =) oliver kahn and micheal ballack and that guy from spain. he rawks. so skilful ! henry is my new idol ! he scored that goal agains real mandrid. i never like real. never ever. cnt wait to watch park play for korea. think it will be good. whee whee. im so excited.

i always rmb that i sucked at FIFA. i duno why. be it on sega, PS or PC. i was never good. even on hp. lols. i miss gaming. im so bored. ohya. still got 1 time. the.. jin1 yong1 game. so fun. play it so many time. mmm.

wellx. im off soon. tuition @ 830am tmr again. cheeroies^

2006-02-25T12:27:00.000+08:00

im gonna replay this video like hundred and thousand and one times. i think i already watch it more than ten times le x=

2006-02-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

today is ADRIANO day =)

adriano day.

歌曲：嫁给我

歌手：杜德伟

小星星亮晶晶闪在你的眼睛里
从此投入我的心呼风又唤雨
我愿意好愿意双手奉上我自己
单身夜里找到你再也不离去
爱是我爱是你爱是肯定句
oh~谁也不能阻挡我永远守护你
日出日落黑夜白昼时时刻刻拥在怀中
清清楚楚这感动分秒可以成永久
我望著你你看著我有句话我想对你说
今生今世跟著我做你幸福的理由
嫁给我

today is adriano day. dedicated to him and only him.

ha. yesterday was *aHem day.

today is a happy day. happy happy happy. but abit sad too. and hungry. lols.

why am i so happy today?

lalala. today is adriano day ! lol. and some other reasons. wow its so late.

2006-02-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

losing my direction.

small fries. lol. not large not medium but small fries. small small fries.

waha. actually being a bo-chap person is actually a good thing. there are so many things i wanna be bo-chap about. bo-chapness is a blessing indeed. not everyone can be bo-chap. really. being hack care about certain things is not an easy task. for me at least. wellx.

then one by one, the stars will all go down. then ~~you~~ & I would simplify always.

+_+

i understand the meaning of sour grapes. lol. took me so longg. but at least i understood.

wonder what the world would be 100 years from now if cloning was successful. how many twins would there be.
hmms.

2006-02-22T16:09:00.000+08:00

today was so freaking malu. took me 20 mins to decide on whether i should go to school or not. but then, if i din go to school, i would have to see a doc to get MC. and if i go see a doc, it's my 5th day of fever and i might need to go take blood test for in case i tio dengue. yesterday was damn depressing. my bro told me neighbour got ppl spray the white smoke. means someone tio dengue.. i was so freaked out. i had dengue in dec 2003. and normally.. 2nd time dengue.. the survival rate is quite low? i was so freaked out. today was a malu day in school =(( sobs sobs. wellx.

why is it that sometime people are blessed with some happiness and while some other people can only stand at the side and look at those people enjoying their happiness and don appreciate. maybe not that they don appreciate. they just don't know how blessed they are. i miss the smiles. i miss the laughter. i miss the happiness. i just wanna see it all over and over and over again. it can repeat my whole life till im old. i'll still enjoy every moment of it to bits. im missing it. lots-

wellx. im gonna get a c6 for combine humans. so proud of my hard work =) on the positive side, i PASS. but i think that aint gonna be my reaction when i get my result slip in class. wellx. c6+c6. even if i get the other 4 all a1s, it's still a 16. sighs. sixteen. i wonder if i would faint if i see it x=

telling myself to look away and don't bother. maybe i just can't// =((

2006-02-19T18:40:00.000+08:00

daah. i hate being sick. sians. i hate hate hate hate hate it. it's so siann. i need to be in front of the fan 24/7 cann. i dunno wad kind of dumb fever i have nia. first it started off with 37.7 den later drop to 37.3 den duno why rights. today i felt very hot so i went to bathe and after i came out it was 38.3. wad crapp. den now i think its 37.5. its not very high but im sian of having fever. its like sleep sleep sleep until dowanna sleep. but the only thing i could do is sleep.

sighs. i wanna go school tmr. i dowanna do ying yong wen at home. i dowanna retake english comp on another day. blahs blahs blahs.

I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO DO CHEMISTRY WORK SHEET CHAPTER 16. she wants us to finish the whole thing. SURELY I KNOW HOW TO DO. sighs. sighs.sighs. i regretted falling asleep during her lesson. but wellx. it wanst on purpose. i would never fall asleep during lesson time on purpose. what else could it mean?

lolx. waha. tmr i go school think i bring mask better. dowanna spread my germs. i shall be determined to go school tmr. i bringing my marker there. cause i cant talk. so prolly write everything i need to say. lolx.

sigh.

fever go away. voice come backk.

2006-02-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

screwed up day. at first my day was complete. it ended up with the bus breaking down. reached home at 1015. thanks =) sacarsm* the bus door couldnt close like wows. hmms.

tekan day. lol. so funn. my new guides tee dirty.. duno whether stain can come out nia. if not really sobs and sighs..

i have no motivation to study. my l1r5 gonna hit more den 15 for this CA. damn. lucky there is no class position in CAs if not i'll prolly be right at the back.

i hate sec 4 life. hate hate hate hate hate. im tired but i dowanna sleep. baAH.

2006-02-16T19:27:00.000+08:00

mmm. had another weird weird weird dream/nightmare last night again. wadsup with me. ha. slept at 1030 due to some pathetic reasons i do not wish to say yea. took some panadol and went to sleep. baAH.

it so started when i was caught for being involved in some murder case of an old lady. i dunno why. all i knew i did NOTHING wrong. but i was involved and they caught me up okay. they caught me ! and the next moment. i forgot if there was court stuffs but the next moment i knew that i was gonna get executed. cause of a crime i did not do. at that moment i really felt pathetic. all in my mind was. hello. im barely 16 and im gonna get executed? dont ask me why it was execution okay. it just WAS execution. so i was like there. helpless. stranded. alone. why am i going to die so soon? then i went into the execution room. there was blood lah. this huge muscular guy took the sword. u noe those type of curve sword. those in those wu xia xiao shuo type. ya then my supposingly partner was executed liaos. i didnt see the body nor the head. only saw the floor was red. then i started going crazy. im gonna die now like HELLO? I HAVE A LIFE, I HAVE A FAMILY, I HAVE FRIENDS AND U WANT ME TO DIE NOW? i was so so so not prepared to leave the world. imagine all these going through my head.. then i pleaded with the person in charge. the person din let. and then, i ran. the running part was kinda insane. i jumped from tree to tree. erm, means i grabb the branches from tree to tree lah. and guess who was running after me? i duno why but it was kelly. lol. i really dunno why it's her leh. but she was chasing me x= then i ran ran ran ran ran. the distance was like from marine parade to my house lah. i have no idea why. i kept running. the first thing i did when i reached home was to start writing 'goodbye' letters to people. pokeytoots was included. i used some construction a4 paper and crayons? which seem quite real caused i really have construction coloured a4 paper under my table. den it's like so so so realistic. i was in my room, mugging with the goodbye letters. screams. then later i didnt know wad happen. i din write finish the letter, then i went to hide cause i sense kelly coming. i was cropped at the corner with some blanket covering me. den i stayed there. then i started thinking. why did i have to die blah blah blah blah. then i din noe wad happen. the next scene i was in school. then i duno why. nobody knew about my execution thing yet lah. den i was trying to act normal. then later i was outside of my class and liuying came walking by, then its like she already knew about my execution thing lah.. then later she duno telling me what thing about christian stuffs lah. then i started crying. i cry cause i cant bear to die or wad? i was so freak out. eh. i really cried lah. morning wake up by eye surely with contacts not wet one lor. got one time i cried in my sleep. could barely open my dear eyes the next morning. hmms. but as i cried, in the dream i was like.. would my contacts dropp. duno why sias. then i woke up after duno what happen. i wasnt in the dream long enough to see my head being chopped off. i was at the edge of death. i experienced it in my dream.

so wads the conclusions now? haish. this dream really made me realised that im afraid to die. im not prepared to die. i dowanna die. there are too many things in the world i have to live for. it kidna means that if i die suddenly now, it would be full of regrets. there are too many things in the world i have yet to see.. haish. haish. this dream really made me think alot. brought me to the edge of death. wad does death means. why was i so scared. why.

wellx. gotta mugg some stuffs le. double sighs.