todae was guidessss. did drill the tessst. denn later played the company bonding game.. play till we surrrrrenderr.. lols. den later cannot find pinnnnnk. surely one can.. hiding where.. in the indoooor stadium.. eeey. so later do camp patrol stuffs..

when guides end den we go bugis makan den go buy the materials.. den in the end din use velco.. so ex can. den we are gonnnna use button.. eeey. nice nice nice.. mmmz. jiayou..

eSpresSo JiaYou!!

tata~
take care everyone.
will miss everyone.
surely-

cya..

Saturday, Dec. 11, 2004
okay. im back. eeey. blegh. wadeva. somehow just din wanna get backk. not dat i enjoyed taiwan but just that come back seem to have so mani things to do.. maybe my mama was right.. finishing my holidae hw before i go taiwan.. now i go. and im back. camp stuffs. later orientation stuffs. den school reopen le.. well~

sec 3H x=
onli 7 history peeps inside. all from 2e. how nice. SEVEN. outa. 30 something. niceeeeeee.

well. taiwan. first typhoon in 40 years during winter. and we met it.. awww. is it good or BAD. well. den.. stoooopid airplane. i wanna sit SQ one can.. but $200 more expensive.. where got worth it.. den had to be tortured on the plane ride.

continue soon.

Thursday, Dec. 16, 2004
haish.. suo lai suo qu alreadi so long past le.. went to holidae.. well.. wad can be so lucky.. first typhoon in 40 years during winter met me.. and the temperature drop 5 degrees down? but we also lucky la.. the rain stopped as we moved on.. well.. the tour guide was teaching cme lessons.. hmmm. den buy lots of food.. all the clothes dere long sleeve one.. surely i buy baq to hot singapore to wear one de..

so the trip pass on with me sitting a roller coaster with my bro and when we started scolding each other.. abit scary la.. okay la. quite scary. 2 loops can die lo.. den first part go up den suddenli go down den go up again den dowan again. freaky can...

den liddat the trip slowly ended and baq i am home baq in singapore. aniwae so funneh lo. for the trip rite.. i almost every night dream lo.. so cool or freak.. forget all my dreams le.. haa.

so its like fridae go baq sch lo.. practice danceee. den dance dance dance den go home den saturdae dance dance dance again.. den later sundae pack things den go for cammmmp le..

den cammmp.. mosquito sucks can.. i scratch till gortttt rashes.. first night still got sleep.. think 12 plus den sleeeeeeep. den later 4.30 wake up.. my patrol KS can. wan morning wake up prepare earlier.. den 2nd dae canoeing got STUCK.. shhhh. dowan talk abt it.. den liddat ba.. den campfireeeee. the aeroplane keeeeep flying.. tengah airbase x= helicopters also.. so noisy.. den 2nd night.. i set alarm 1.30. wake up so quiet.. den go baq to sleep.. den later 2am wake up den go hikee. the stars so pretty can.. haa. den later break camp.. go back to school..

den later pizzzzza. pizzzzzza. lolx. den tired. den went home.. in toilet for more den 1 hr can.. den in the nite wanted to count mosquito bites.. surely i can count finish.. lol.

den later play comp stlil get scoldedddddd. den later sleep.

surely can.. dis morning got tuition.. surely lo. tml morning also got.. maths x= well~
gtg le..

bye.

Sunday, Dec. 19, 2004
haish haish haish haish? class puting xmas.. of all days 24th? of all days i 24th cannot.. nvm.. count me unlucky then..

well. so long since i updated? my maths tuition is going crazzzzzy. thurs 930. fri 930. sundae 930. he wants me to go nxt tues 930 and night 730. still wan me go on xmas eve night. surely i wan go one.

hmm. yesterdae did cip at jurong.. jurong point rawks can.. heeeeez. it rawks rawks rawks. so bigggg. well. sat mrt baq with kel jinzhi and natty and ME. den talk so much crap in the mrt train.. i still think mrt so much better den busss. lolx.

haish. im praying the lor and yk wld stop talking abt class outing or band concert. im not even sure if i can go either one. class outing is comfirm cannot liaox. band concert? i duno either. well. just dont have mood?

dreams are really false hope ma.. i mean most of dreams are those lame stuffs.. so dream is not reality. wad was i wrong to say that.. hmm. maybe.
wad rubbish. say i everytime also sad. got wad diff. say wad pessismistic x=

rubbish-

duno la. next year realli wanna pia liaox. i must study hard hard hard. mug mug mug. guides must spend alot of time and effort le.. say bye to my entertainment. bye to tv. bye to comp. next year can change sms plan to talk time plan liaox. surely gort time to sms liaox..

dono why. yesterdae got motivation. todae got motivation. later tml no more motivation den diee. later end up like mh. it was yesterdae dat got motivation. todae no motivation. cannot liddat lo. i dowan liddat.

well. tml. eeey. havent decided wad to do yett.. well. hike report.. must remember.. yepp.

no mood to type animore?

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Tuesday, Dec. 21, 2004
hihi.. here i am.. there am i.. okay crap.. well.. so long din update le. actuali is busy but i just dont seem to make use of my timmme? dono whyy--

hmmm. todae went for tuition. 930.. tired cann. all the sums all get wrong.. cher angry liao.. meaning all leh.. really. den later went to addy house to wash hairrr? eeey. long story. den later she tie her hair tie tie tie tie tie until tv no more shows to watch liao.. nt dat serious larx.. lolx. den later buy chicken rice for dem.. den bring sch.. souvenoir is like due so soooon. only done abit. 150 by nxt nxt week. *praying* after that went for YF.. sing sing sing ba.. quite lame with 2 siao charbo beside me.. lols. den later after YF. dono wad happen. i stary at clara and luff. den she began conducting my laugther.. wad rubbbbISH. surely my laughter can conduct.. think wad mussssic la. surelyyyy. rubbish drum bird bell.. luo yan ling.. lalala~

class outing really cnt go le.. de most only afternoooooon i guess. hmmmm. merry christmas =) surely i gort enough time to buy stuffffs now. hmmmm. alort havent do finish yet i guesss.. but at least im going for band concert riteeee. =) whee. so what type of flowers to buy.. bouquet or 1 rose each.. rose nicer lo.. but lor say its pathetic.. haa.

i really dowanna go 2005 lo.. wad rubBISH countdown.. somehow scared that 2e peeps wld really step into their new sec3 class and really love it that much and forget 2e?? wad the hell am i thinking.. +stooopid thinking+ welll. i really pray harrd ba. wan my sec3 class to be bonded but also wanna keep 2e close to my heart also.. harrrd. but i really love 2e.. really =)

i really cnt imagine that is the last few days of 2004. i dowanna go 2005. another new year ahead means lots of stuffs. new stress.. stress. stress. jus say im scared to take upon dis new challenge? when i was sec1 i said dat i din wanna go sec2 cos im scared of streaming. so im the girl who transfered from geog to hist when whole wide world rather go geog den hist? well. i prefer history so much can. smiling now and then such that i DONT have to see or do GEOG animore in my whole entire life.

smiles =)

NO MORE GEOG!

Remind me of that anti-geog society. haa. wad can i do when geog failed me. studied so hard and i din get wad i expected. well.

im tired. its late.

tata~

Wednesday, Dec. 22, 2004
hmm. here i am blogginggg. was back frm orchardddd. went shopppping the whole day. okay not shopping. with my dad dere was walking. he wasnt happy when me and my mum alwaes stoppping by every shoppp.

end of year gonnnna come liaoz? imagine last year. just last year. how different things was den.. maybe its all part of growing upp. i dono but guess i really change? i mean its all changes we go through each day? its like sometimes we also have to learn to grow to except other people changes too. its not that the world would revolve around you each day. and so when u learn and realise that u cannot learn to accept other people changes and other people cnt except yr changes? what can you do?? maybe that's how people drift away from each other.

-drift- without a river thou.
lesson one learnt- learn to accept changes.

there's some point in one life when you dont treasure someone's frenship as much as the person do or the person don't treasure your frenship as much as he or she do. i mean its kinda hurting u see. well. dere's nth we can do? i mean things juz come when it comes and when it just goes? i mean. no point trying to hold on to something which wasnt meant to be. or no point holding on if the other party wants to let go? or not even let go? maybe even don bother- what can be more extreme than not caring. that's life i guess. wad's life if it aint this way.

-fangshou- washing my hands off clean.
lesson two learnt- learning to let go.

as the life journey goes on certain things just doesnt seem to go on so smoothly but? we cnt like stop and cry or anything. like what everyone said. life's like a roller coaster. there are up's and down. but. if life is really like a roller coaster? imagine when u are at the top. will u really like look up and wonder wow. how high up i am. if it was me. i would be scared and fearful of the nxt milisecond its gonna go down. right down as u feel your whole heart's sinking right right down. it's kinda freaky. so, what are life up's and down's? the freakiness of moving too fast ahead and that a downfall would come ahead? guess many of us look for excitement? excitement that really kills. if everything just go on just so smoothly for u. won't u be afraid if one day you will just loose everything? that's life of a roller coaster. and i don't want it- i hate ups. cause no one can garentee that the up is forever there. many people said don't be afraid to fall cause you are always given a chance to stand up again. but most of the time is the emotional block within u that stops you from standing up again. u just have to learn to over come that.

-fall- get up again.
lesson three- learning is everything. so learn to get up again when you fall. not just do it.

sometimes in life when you just wanna give up? it's like, failing a test which you have really study all so hard? and thinking you would have at least gotten to a certain marks thou its still low. at least u had an expectation then. but when u got back yr paper? i mean wads all that crap of telling myself not to cry. does it really matters if i cry or not cry? crying is only a sign of feeling sad. not a sign of weakness. i really don't like people crying to attract attention cause it really sucks. stop reminding me of my kindergarden days x= seriously. so what if you cry? you just need to release that emotion in you of sadness. why be afraid to cry? so what if other people say this and that? why should you control your emotions because of what one said?

-cry- it's not a choice.
Lesson four- don't be afriad to cry.

Life goes on. no it's only gonna make you strong. i guess it's a song if i remember correctly. never- i mean ever too. think of ending your life. somehow i think it's plain stupid. think of everyone who have contributed to make the you today. your parents. your parents parents to have your parents. it goes on and on. why bother to end your life if you are given one? it is a gift and gifts are meant to be excepted. not thrown away-

-never- end yr life.
Lesson five- treasure what is given to you. don't lose it. let least risk to lose it.

there is one more thing which i realised that cannot live without? happiness. i think its really everything to be happy. i mean wad is everything if you are not happy? nothing- happiness is everything. for me that's it.

-smile- *winks*
Lesson six- happiness is really everything.

reality vs dreams. many people has tell me not to trust and believe reality so much cause its always dreams that keep u moving on. giving u all that motivation. but believeing in dreams? i mean.. i just got the phrase from somewhere. dreams are the wishes you make when you are asleep? but my dreams are kinda weird? okay. too weird i guesss. urm.. don realli noe wad to write for these thou..

Sometimes in life, intuition tells you to trust that person. its like. just trust? i mean. even if someone break your trust. it's not YOUR fault i mean. it's like putting your trust in someone. and the person breaking? i've realised. i mean it's more of the person fault? guess i've learnt to forgive the person who break my trust and learn how to believe the trust nextime. i dono cos i feel, well. everyone should be given trust and whether or not he or she treasures it? thou trust is one of the most important thing? i think it deserves to be given back to the person. i dono why. but. it's just like that.

Lesson seven- Always learn to put trust in someone.

Saturday, Dec. 25, 2004
dowanna blog on dat previous entry anymore.. awww. i just love my class__

okay. so it was just yesterday. well.. yesterday. we WERE supposed to meet at 230. so i waited there. wait wait wait. i went to mac and read jin tian yi. den later went to find qq dey all. and suddenly i dono wad happen. den later dey all meet den i was supposed to be pissed.. haa. so later we met and Xchange xmas present.. well. mine had part A B C D. hmm. i think. 4 parts if im righhht. awwww. really spend so much effort dis year. i hope.. all that sewing.. all that needle poking against my fingertipss. all the hard workk. the glitter. sorry everyone of the glitter.. i really sorry.. if it dirty or smt.. it wasnt supposed to fall out u see. i used UHU glue.. blame it on the manufacturer =) so later i was really waiting desprately for clara's gift and guess what. she wrapped it. arhhh. mine cnt be wrapped. wasnt smart enough to be like clint. put in office envelop. *thanks, where's my next month's salary?* okay cut that crap. wait. i learn something new. where did you get the scissors from? =) still got mx and tess envelopes.. so sweet can.. the tiles.. clip and magnet.. so coooL. den got adel's glass bottle.. sob sobb. the candle wick fell in.. haish. but so cute can.. the kiki and lala. awww.

okay.. so later we tralalalala~ de blaaaaah.. den we end up at ting's house.. den later help ddy ABIT with her stuffs. den i gave out the sweets and letters which i mugg last night and dis morning. den its like hard work paid off. so sweeeet. gave everyone who was there.. yepp. -sweeeeeeeet- den later makannn. den later PHOTOS! awww. nice nice nice-

den later haish. so sweet can. we went playground.. so we took photos. acted lame. and being lame. and later sent me to the security guard dere to go la. and this is the sweet part. i was walking and they sang "we wish you a merry christmas!" okay. it was just one phrase. den the security guard said smt i think, but it was so sweeeeeeet? oh man. i just drank honey i guesss.

so i sat the bus. and i was so late. my bro were sending me sms like u die liao la so late and faster come and you better run here later and take mrt la faster.. so i reached there 2 hr 45 mins late =) my best recordd. well. so dere was like so little foood left for me. or maybe i was hungry.. aft running with click clock slippers.. awww. i din noe how i rann. slippers-- nice.. i need a new pair. this one sucks.

opening clara's present was so sweet. she literelly put onions in itt. well.. sobbbbbbbbbb. luv her =)

today is christmas. well. 1 hour more it aint christmas anymore. i wanna wish.. firstly everyone of two E. addy, angel, cally, lor, jx, tes, kris, yujie, mx, hx, joy, ME, clara, suz, elaine, steph, geral, yining, qq, yj, puimunn, philine, sy, ting and ALL the boys. lazy to type =) and guideration =) sec 2's AH GUIDES: starting from dove=> rylz, jinzhi, char, ray, evefu, wen, mx, zy, pearly, cind, yingqi, wei, jack, bren, jiahui, kel and last but nort the least eunice =) and the whole of ixora patrol.. [wei2ma'am, sheena, hanyun, caron ma'am, huiyuan ma'am, zy, sam, san, char] whole else of AHguides. my pri sch frens. oops. i saw dis at jaeric's blog forget to puttt. urm. jaekiel, jaesal and jaeric and jaecuzzi? lolx. jae family =) syn one lehh. crapp. all my primar sch frenns. janne, andrew, shir, mc ... cannot rmb liaox. den still gorttt my online frens.. sharr, aaron, oh ya ah kongg. denn. my cousin: biggest peanut in the world + polly pocket + cute lil emma n joseph andd tommy and my mom's sidee. and my 2 bro and papa and mama. my neighbour and.. urmm. who nvr mentionn. i dunno liao la.. i nvr mentio you so so so so so sorry..

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE =)

and a happy new year.

it's too early for new year resolutions.
i shall waittt xD

take care and God bless.

`` LOOKING FORWARD to BAND CONCERT TML.

__class spirit. at least half the class going tml to support the SIX concert band peeps =)

i luv 2E___________-

Wednesday, Dec. 29, 2004

oh man i lurve this song =)

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Friday, Dec. 31, 2004
tmrr is.. new year. somehow something tells me that im nort looooking forward to it.. im looooooking backwards. let's look back.

2004- urm.. i lurve my class. i dowan 3h. i wan 2e. nowae am i gonna leave it. arhhhhh. wan cry liaox. cry before. 2e.. sobbing. i missssssss two E.

2003- eeey. step into AHS. i wanted to go DHS can. who ask me toooooo stooopid la. den come in AHS jiu shi zhe yang.

Wad crap looking back. nth to write.. eeey. why people say the phantom not shuai.. abit ma.. i not say very la. very long nvr say ppl shuai cannot issit... lols. shuai shuai shuai... i wanna watch again.. who wanna treat meeeee. i go wait for dvd.. wait wait wait. eey. later i go see his shuai face agn.. lol. but he real life not shuai la. onli wear the mask shuaiiiiiiii. awww. im mad. actuali he's not THAT shuai i guess. simple plan lead singer.. how can compare.. shhhhhhh. i don say ppl shuai cause of hair kay.. shhh. dono which id ten plus person say that one k. shhhh.

haish. so many years liaox. this year has been a weird year for me. so so so so many things happpppppen. suddenli dis year can love bball so much one lo. so so so so so so so much dat i can wake up at 630 and go out of the house at 7.15 to play bball at this WEIRD place which i aint supposed to be in with ppl giving me WEIRD stares and then rushing off to tution and nomatter how i tried im always late.

okay. 12 liaox. okay la. 12 and 3 mins liaox. 2005. lets start crying. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

cry cry cry.
sob.