Saturday, January 01, 2005
2004 have been quite a rush year i guess. well. seeing people changing from good to bad and from bad to good =x guess i mean people change. changes happen everyday. life is full of changes and we can only live to accept changes. like i always said. the world won't change for you. life doesnt revolve around you.. well, as there are changes, what can we do? this year i also watched friendship strengthened and driften. some friendship which i tried to hold on to? it's time to let go i guess i mean true frens will always stay by you.. bonded closes together with my classmates too.. all the crap we spent together in class. all that pizza outing and bdae celebration =) hope it continue into next year? i hope. well, sometimes as frens drift awae and i wonder why and why i din or the other din do anithing about it. well. really learning to let go? is it really a good thing.. well. also learnt to treasure frenship which i think i will keep through my life. well. so this year.. hmm. my bball improved but nort my bowling. hey. half of my resolution last year cann. lols. no larxx. guess dis year really drop in studies liaox.. must jiayou next year.. no more comp. no more gb. no more no more. smsing dat much. no more talkin on the fone so often. guess ive alreadi gotten used to some of these le.. well. life is busy. im off- go watch phantom of the opera. school's starting in a matter of 16 hours time. should i start sleeping? well. i was still awake at 3.45 am for some dumbbbbbb reasons reading SPASTIC letters.. awwwwwwww. had a great luff yesterday.. argggh. and i gort pissed off and when to bed. so my parents said it won't rain? i on the air con and guess wad. my dad came to my room to tell me something den he off the air con and i slept from that time to like.. hmm. 1 pm? i think it was from 9am to 1pm which means four hours w/ jacket under blanket w/out fan windows close. wowwwww. and i wasn't even sweating? so i finished my new year resolution at 11.47pm. trust me on the crap which i said new year resolution can only be written on new year's day. haaa. wad dumb crap was that. so how happy i was on new year's morning. was online till like 2am and gort scolded like hell? well. why was i playing gb and such a late hour. had a dumb countdown when SOMEONE's comp clock is like SO SO SO much faster. and i only could receive sms and couldnt reply back. boo hoo. till 1am when cute lil sam sms me abt souvenoir. arrhhh. jiayou for souvenoir k =) we can do it! souvenoir people!! jiayou!! maybe that will encourage me not to slack that much.. i only tied 12 so far? well. gonnnnnna mug mug mug. din even burn a single paper at all. maybe later.. it's always later!! okok. soon~ =) so i replied all the happy new year greetins like 12 on new year day. 12 noon i mean. lucky nobodi call me lagggg. lolx. and let me see. only 3 people replied out of.. 15? nono more more. eeey. cannot remember larx.. school starting le. 3H- horror can. i wan 2e. shooooo 2e'05 peeps. shooooooo. get out of My class. mine mine mine! get out!!! well.. so tuition is on mondae rather den tuesdae? which mean i have to go home ALL by myself in the darrrrrk. i hate it. stooopid canal. so dark. eeey. nvm. im growing up =) sob sob friday orientation cca. den later soon will be senoir senoir liaox. waaaaah. wad crap i talking siaaaa. senoir senoir. surely gort.. halfly excited halfly scaredddddd. aww. crap! i still don have a locker.. someone help me!! im gonna like chip in books here and there? sobsss. SOB! sob. arrhhhh. i think is possible de la. but dono if they minddd. well. sec3....... SAVE me. ms sia refused to tell me anything abt the teachers!! how could sheeee. i CNT wait......... sob sob. eeey. better give me some good teachers. i hope. twoE i miss you. howwwwwww. i miss two E leh.. sob. really miss. it's miss so so so so so so MUCH. quick. must have 2e reunion. urmm. cny? yepp yepp! reunion during CNY! okay set! haa. surely.. go where reunion sia.. ms sia house again i hope. will she allow? haa. she din invite us lehh. wad crapppppp. now still jan i think of feb liaox. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey. miss 2e i till dat extent liaoxxxxx. must have 1 saturdae gathering soon. yepp yepp~ okay. off to pack my roooom. still in a great mess you see. urmm. i spent 30mins wrapping 2 books yesterdae! A maths and Chem. rubbish rite? i din buy english this time round. save money. wellllllll. im outa here. wish me all the best k? cnt be more happy, cnt be more sad.. oooh ah ah. life's like that.. ah ah.. that's the way it is. dono how to sing liaox.. hmmm. so slept like average 5 hours for the whole week? yepp.. well. at least its over.. oh man.. orientation souvenoir.. lets give thanks to the peeps.. minxue for helping to burnn the paper until her feet gort burnt?? a lil bit la.. thanks lot! thanks eunice and pearlyy. dat tyme we walked down the hill when everywhere was so so so so darkk. thanks for waiting.. banner peeps. wait for us to keep stuffs and everythinggg. then all the luffings down the hill.. +[mx,ryl,eunice,pearly&ME]+ okay.. it was abit crap i agree. walk halfwae can luff till luff luff luff. those were those entertainment through the hard workk. yepp.. maybe nextime i go work as bending metal wires la.. improve a lil more can liaoxx. jkjk.. well. that dae samantha and charmaine also stayed up till quite lateee. well. thanks for all the clearing up =) yepp yepp. zi xin.. cute girl la she.. well. dat tyme she and sam came baq during the hols to help.. so so so nice lorr. yepp. den bring home alort of stuffs to do one =) thanks everyone who realli spent an effort to this whole souvenoir orientation.. now i save the best for the last... +[cheryL!!]+ we made it so farrrrrrrr! quick. sleeping marathon! go go go. i jus realised u arent online.. gues u start snoaring liaoxx. luffs. well. really nice to work with you with all your fantastic ideas and ability to do stuffs so fast over night.. yepp. its over at last =) thanks for everything that u have done from the first dae we were called i/cs.. yepp yepp yepp! love u to bits! arghh!! eunice don jealous =) jkjk. performance.. just glad that we were able to tie finish the luggage rack in such a short tyme.. and it was stable too.. for chermaine to sit.. yepp yepp. brave dorita =) finally have a chance to regain all my loss of sleep.. funneh leh.. when everyone was saying that last night cnt get to sleep. me n ryl were lyke.. see bed den tired liaox.. well.. yepp. disappointed bout tmr i guess. its like im tired too? but guess nobodi bothered to make an effort out of anything and.. well. was really damn freaking pissed jus now but really hope it wun happen agn tmrr. who is not tired may i ask? i mean dere is a word called try and nobodi seem to know it. i duno wad is happening around la and like i said. sometimes things are happen too fast until we don even have the time to stop and look around and realising things are really going on faster then u expected.. im screwing up for studies and i dowann it. decided to be a nerd this year. bye bye comp. soon. i hate maths. and never will love it agn. nice song below i hope. It's been two days and I'm missin' you already Think about the nights when I'm lyin' in your bed Chorus Verse 2 So just come back and I'll tell you how I feel (Chorus) I think, I'm fallin' in love Bridge: (Chorus) I think, I'm fallin' in love Many days I've spent I know I will falter, I know I will cry Sometimes it feels no one understands 'Cause it's a long, long journey When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes last sundae had tuition.. well.. yepp den mondae had school den stayed backk for dance i think.. den tues went for YF.. hmmmz. den sing sing sing. wed was bball. okay im gonna elaborate. so its lyke we went to play bball la.. okay DUR. after so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so long. i think i kinda improved k. thou i din play for lyke so long?? den later play play play la.. den mx gort injured.. hmm. so sob rite.. den later everyone sit down one circle.. okay dat was crap. wad dumb lorr. dono clint or jas say dat if her hand never block den the bball word will kana printed.. den i said that need use mirror to read.. okay. so that was it la. it was ALL for joke.. yepp. den later i really dunno wad happen. i really dont and STOP calling me a retard cause of that. okay. i luff for 20mins on my own. i really FORGOT what happen k. nort my fault dat i find something funneh and dey all dont. hmm. so luff luff luff lor.. okay now nort funneh liaox. den thursdae dance. fridae was cca. had drill and stuffs. hmmm. i wanna talk about today =) wheee-- so it started off with me waiting 17mins for dis nice little girl to comee. how early leh.. den later we slowli walk up hill with dis crazy girl running cause the sun was so hot and bright. xS so go dere den dance dance dance dance. okay. i cannort do the dance steps la.. TRYING k. yepp. hope i can do it la.. kip making mistakes though. hmm. den later we all went down for lunchh. hmmm. i ate chicken rice again- i dunno wad to eattt. lolx. so later buy bubble tea.. den later go back school dance lorrrrr. den later play bball. stooooopid la. indoor court is BOOKED. when only he playing. so end up we go the outdoor one.. den so mani ppl playing soccer. eh. dey having match nort playing soccer is wad.. wooops.. lolx. hmm. den its lyke at first starting only me mx rylz and eunice! so damn funnnnneh. okay. hmm. rylz and eunice no slippers so me n mx also take out pei dem in the hot hot hot hot sunn. okay nort dat hot.. so its lyke so so so so so so so hot. no la. im just exagerating actually they are just purely crap. but indeed its hot. so we play lor.. den later gort 3 ncc come den play lor. surely we din get trashed la. too short liao la.. haish. den later kel eve come den we played 3 v 3. and it was FULL court. so sweeeet lor.. den later was lyke. tired liaox den free throw.. den me rylz and zy just lie down on the court and it was so nice lor.. den see the mooooon. so cool alright.. den we lay back and talk and singgg. awwww. how sweet. yepp.. my hand is kinda tired le. its was soso so so so so so nice todae. tata. nite.! I SAY JAY CHOU NEW CD ON TV!!! I WAN BUY!! damn funneh. just now me and lor was lyke.. see hu buy first.. lolx. hope my bro bother to go buy for me ba.. if nort earliest den i sundae can gett. well. i will get it nomatter how much i starve during recess k. haa. heard some songs which bring bacc certain memories but shi qing guo le jiu yao fang shou. yepp. well.. dats life man.. things happen things over and things to be forgotten.. just browse through some photos and its lyke all of 2e.. well. already so long liaox and i still miss twoE. i miss the times when we had our class outing. miss those bball games we played and dat tyme the soccer game thou i got ramp but dere's still the spirit within us that wow girls play soccer and guys actualy let us play soccer despite our screams dunno how to play and so mani stuffs? dats team spirit. i miss those tyme we did the notice board.. every saturdae. the tyme when we visited mr tam and ms sia house during chinese new year? the animal game.. luffs. and the cute lil dogg and i rmb dey were watching a ghost movie? haa. as much as i love 2e.. i also want 3h to bond.. well. write till her le. tata. life is full of choices. what is life when i keep choosing the wrong choice and what is life when the choices doesnt have a correct one. if we live to forget why bother remembering. why bother to waste that cell in your memory? why do people tend to hold on then to move on? why does the past seem more worthy of to keep then to look forward to the future? cause the past is something that can never change but the future is something that changes with anione's doing. which could prolly screw everything up. In life there are the ups and downs. sumhow if u realised in a roller coaster. the only path up hill is a straight path. where as the down path might comes in curves and turns and loops. the journey up is short and slow. but the jorney down is fast and long. a roller coaster is built this way. why? Life's aint a bed of roses? roses have thorns i thought? so life's ez den w/out thorns? true frens are lyke four leave clover, hard to find but lucky to have. what if you found one and realised that after plucking it out from the plant or the grass and realised it withers and die? so do we go there and look at it grow everyday? true friends are hard to find and harder to let go. what if one day it just happen? things arent that lucky animore. brain cells are wasted daily on all these stuffs. i write to get it off my head. i hope- sometimes i really ask myself? really, 5 years down the road will we still be friends? will we still keep in contact? even if we do, will be still be able to accept all the chances that had came through us over the years? what is really true? what can we really see in the future? i mean, how will we be able to look forward to the future where anything can happen? at least looking back upon past memories let us believe that that happy moment ever occured in your life. Will i wake up one day when im 80 and i dont remember anything on my secondary school life let least primary? Do i look back and see myself being too uptight and anxious over the future and never did bothered to look back and treasure the past? or when i look back and realised that i have been holding on too much to my past memories that i din have the chance to move on? or i had the chance and choice, but i choose the other way out. w0nder why i alwaes choose the wrong direction. its alwaes the wrong timing- Choices, we choose who we trust. Trust, does it shows how much or deep the friendship is? Sometimes we choose rather to trust a complete stranger then someone near. Why? Why bother trusting one who doesnt even treasure your trust? Why must there be someone so special to you in your life that? that? i dunno. i fear- yes i fear- So what is fear? that scared of knowing something is gonna happen but not having the courage to think about it and all the consequences? sometimes in life there are certain things which i don understand and i never really wanted to find out the answer? no wait. humans were made to be curious. i just don don don wanna understand? why? i dont- i dont wanna accept reality anymore. 14 years of my life have passed. what have i found out? 14 years wasted. how long more will i live? gonna live everyday in depression? i want the sad days to be gone. i dowannnnnnnnnnna. why bother remembering about the happy times when all that's left is memories and it will never happen again. time is such that we cannort rewind. why? if only. i could turn the time back. i wanna be in sec2. i don mind repeating that very day. that very week or that very year. if i have the type of memory lyke the gitl in 50 first dates. i wake up everyday in my life thinking that it was that dayy. that very moment where i was happy. it was that day. i don wanna leave. i nvr wanted to leave. but its time. it won't wait. if only i could freeze. but i noe it will never happen. forgetting- that's all that's left. why. bother to remember. why? why treasure when its nort there animore. im tired.
Saturday, Jan. 01, 2005
hmmmmm. new year le. that happy meh.. haish. sec3 le =x wan cry liaox. i wan twoE.. i wan wan wan wan.
Sunday, Jan. 02, 2005
okay. finally done with a tiny weeny bit of SS more. well.
i lost my history textbook!!
ARGH!!
someone save me.. okay. save me!
Wednesday, Jan. 05, 2005
2005. class 3H. nice? no comments yet.
glad enough to be with ddy clara tes geraldine =)
hope we could be bonded. but i still miss twoE. sian.
last year dono why the hell geog rep. dis year hist rep for my class. x= 7 ppl rep =) wah siannnnnn. i tout i could be a nerd dis year *aspiring* nerrrrrrrd. history rep. dowan-- supposed to be clara one lorr. well. mus pia for guides liaox.. online 45 mins liaoxx. slack so much le.. must go back do liaox.. did 1 so far.. 41 more to go.. haa. just now whole bus loooking at me.. sobbb. i nort AA la.. haish.
spastics luffing down the sch hill.
SPASTICS!!
i tout i saw something white..
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Friday, Jan. 07, 2005
aT last its over
Never really thought you could mean
So much in such a little time
With my chest resting your head
Now that you're gone I'm here to stay
I think I'm fallin' down. Down down down
With a bad case of love. Love love love
I think I'm falling for you. You you you
I think, I'm falling in love
When you come back all I wanna do is hold you
Have a blast even though there's nothing to do
Hold you close and look you in the eyes
Never knew how easy you could steal
My heart I miss you come home soon
I think, I'm fallin' in love
Cause I know that you won't be home when I call you
You're in England now, I hope that you'll be home soon
Cause I know that you won't be there when I call you, NOW
(slow) I think, I'm fallin' in love
Saturday, Jan. 08, 2005
It's a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long, long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to you
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you, to you
Saturday, Jan. 15, 2005
hmmmmm. at last i started bloggggggin. damn sian la schooool. well.
Friday, Jan. 21, 2005
here i am TRYING to blog.. well. life kinda being too too much busy.. now waiting for my blog to get alright.. im lyke so so so so so sick now? with a serious case of flu and have been sneezing since 10am.. eey. so went out todae la.. woke up by my mum at 10am but i laze till 11? surprised that i can sleep with the lights on and aircon off for one hour.. -w0w- den later went to pan pacific top top top makan.. damn good food.. damn full still now? nw listening to a nice nice nice super nice song? duo ku dou yuan yi by the jap guy who acted in the turn left turn right movie.. luv dat songg lots. so aft makan went to suntec to buyy clothes. hmmm. fine la. i noe i choooooooooooooooose clothes super long la.. mum and auntie was lyke.. eeey. nvm. i mean i really take that long to choose clothes ma.. must lyke den buy ma so need tyme.. den later bought a top la.. blue one.. quite nice la de shade.. yepp. den later walk ard den went pwae.. it sucks k. gort sorta forced to wear a skirt.. eeey. dont talk about it.. damn bro was luffing.. nort my fault lor.
Saturday, Jan. 22, 2005
sometimes in life i wonder why there are 26 letters in the alphabet and sumhow out of these 26 i alwaes choose the 2 wrong ones to do certain stuffs on it.
Saturday, Jan. 29, 2005
Accepting mistakes is part of life. Is accepting mistakes not done by you part of life too? No one is perfect. But one can strive to be perfect? and in the journey of striving for perfectism? how many people would you have hurt in the way of doing so?
