Wednesday, March 29, 2006
told myself not to get online.
blah.
kinda hate bio more and more.
the facts just dont get in at all.
blahblahs.
bio is driving me nuts.
heard that adriano lost by 40votes to make it to the grand final.
40 votes is like only $24. $24 divided by the huge number of his fans.
i guess if everyone contributed just a CENT he would make it through.
im sure his fan base is more den 2400.
im amused by the comments people write on campus superstar the website.
like. posers. lol. den renfred declared that he wont and didnt post at all.
so still got ppl wan act like him.
its really amusing to read such stuffs.
i dunno why.
sians. adriano is out.
dont really have such much interest lah.
aniway heard that he would take part in project superstar.
whee^
bio bio bio = crazy
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
decided to change my blogging style yea. now its gonna be short and sweet.
i'll try.
today my feelings are, pissed. disappointed. and regretful. daah.
i saw that sweet disepenser that day.
why didnt i buy. i knew i would like it.
why didnt it wait for me.
no fate x=
i hope it will be back in stock.
somehow this incident really makes me realised how indecisive i was.
daaah.
why cant i try to make decisions.
sometimes i wish i could just dont care about everyone anyone at all.
and do things the way i want it to be.
but i know people would be unhappy.
then you ask me why i bothered if they would be unhappy.
they are family members/friends/acquaintance/strangers.
i hate an unhappy world.
im someone who needs people around me to be happy.
or i would try to make people around me happy.
despite the fact if i aint.
contradicting?
let's take it that example someone totally HATES studying.
if that person does things his OWN way.
he would just quit school.
but by doing so he would disappoint his parents/teachers.
maybe you can say that it is HIS life.
and he should do everything anyway he wanted it to be.
then, you remember.
you live in the world.
the world dont and will never live for you.
so end of the day.
which is the best way out.
decisions?
-empty-
"The best way to predict your future is to create it."
Unknown
Sunday, March 26, 2006
hmms. i was deciding on whether to blog or nott. daah. so wad am i doing now. lol.
actually i also have nothing much to say. just that. ahh. these few days my mood high high low low de. also duno wad. lyke sin and cos graph liddat. go up come down den go up den come dowan again. hmms.
yesterday walking to interchange that tyme the sky had alot of stars. maybe no one could realised but darn. maybe its not alot. but its more den the miserable less den 7 during dat day camp. its lyke. hmms. chio? sighs. why no one noticed it? cause they werent bright. i juz realised that when i walk to interchange the sky there not much light so its darrk which makes it very easy to spot starss. den later when i reach my bus stop rights. den i alight. den later i cannot see any stars lah. stoopid lights so bright. den i was wondering lyke the clouds so fast come meeh. den later i walk home to that ulu park connecter denn became very dark. den later. i walked with my head up. daah. for all my years of my life. i have been walking with my head facing the ground. i duno why. bad habit but i walking home alone always head face down de. look at the ground. haish. i din realised the wonders of the skyy. how nice the sky is with stars, despite them being not bright. daah. stars stars stars my dears =) okay lah. it was retarded for me to walk with my head up lehh. so so so weird right? lol. lucky never neck strain. the walk home was barely 5 mins lah. lol. actually its 3mins and 33seconds from the bus stop. lol.
daaah. i dowan studdy. i wanna see edison chen. adriano wanna be back up also can. lol. i think im crazzy. ahh. jay music's live in me. so i don have to see him. got 2 pairs of his eyes staring at me while is tudy okay. so scary. ahah. i got jay chou plastic bag also. jay chou on my notebook. lol.
crazy crazy crazy. i shall look for my motivation to study noww. daah. EDISON CHEN MTV !
Thursday, March 23, 2006
wah. speechless to describe my feelings now. today is really a _______ day. so many people bad mood. wellx.
adriano is out and i don think i wanna watch campus superstar anymore. maybe i would watch. but wellx. im not that excited anymore.
yea. don lyke people who NATO. daaah. NATO. blahblahblahblah.
I WAN ADRIANO BACK IN CAMPUS SUPERSTAR. this is withdrawal symptoms. damns. WHY DIDNT U VOTE? haish. its over le x= wellx.
i hate tests. i hate tests. i dowanna studdy. tests are boring. boring boring. damn. 6 more months. i think its 221 more days. im not sure. lol.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
die die die. edison chen ! ! lolx. okay im half crazzy. 
why is edison chen looking so good? lols.
ahh. monday is coming. jiayou adriano. now got man utd match. jiayou man utd. gonna watch it soon i guess.
i concluded that dota is really irrestibly addictive. sigh. so many ppl fallen to the trap of wasting ur electricity on it. lol.
OWNING. sians. edison chen is owning. how many girls he electric shocked le. lol. crazy me.
im gonna die for Social Studies lah. sians sians.
Friday, March 17, 2006
记得两千年的夏天
一起躺在海边聊天
发现有你在我身边
整个气氛悠闲
仿佛全世界都在看着我们手牵手
一起走向远方的夕阳
你的头靠着我的肩膀
好像天堂就在我的心房
给你的爱情付出越多越舒畅
怎么也想不到秋天里解散
怎么也想不到他拍了一支广告
跟着跑到香港
工作开始繁忙
思念却一如往常
他是否记错了她的地址
除非她搬家了
他心中有好多东西
多么想跟她讲
将来不知会不会见你
我始终还不能原谅自己
我为什么没阻止你离去
我真的好想你
i never told you
i wanna hold you
若能见你一面
我想说声抱歉
i never told you
i wanna hold you
宁愿放弃一切
让你留在我身边
突然收到一通电话
看到很熟悉的号码
多么希望听到你的"好吗"
原来是个陌生人回我电话
检查屏幕上的号码
虽然就是你的"un hun"
表示你已经不再用这个电话
这是我唯一联络你的方法
巧合事件能否发生在我身上
可知道我已经不抱任何希望
if you and me were together
together will be 4 ever
i got to believe
i got to believe
i got to believe
that the sun will shine another day
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
自由
也许会恨你
我知道我的脾气不是很好
也许不一定
我知道我还是一样爱着你
打开一瓶红色的酒
看着金鱼游来游去
是否我门都想要自由
我没有关系
你可以假装没事离开这里
一切好安静
我只是想把情绪好好压抑
到底谁会先说再见
我知道我一定哭泣
走的时候记得说爱我爱我
说爱我说爱我
难道你不再爱我
我的泪滴下来
你从来不曾看过
为什么为什么
爱情让人变沉重
没有人告诉我
原来不是我想像
不要回来
你已经自由了
我也已经自由了
im in love with every song adriano sings. lol.
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
hmms. maybe its really too much in chasing idols or people i think its talented.
campus superstar - adriano huang jun hui. wow. my first singapore soul i ever really supported =x was so closed to him yesterday. and he waved. behind me. could have tried for his autograph. i had no paper. no pen. but my cousins got. and i got the photo of his autograph.
omgosh. why am i actually feeling sad. i was hearing "jia gei wo" by adriano. im really so afraid that he might get out. im afraid + scared + worried about adriano.
maybe i shouldnt even have started this craze.
some people like me who never believed in voting. actually got scared, worried and voted once. history moment sias. 60cents leh. nvm. it's only 1 mentos sweet.
i really dowan nxt week to come. oh gosh im too attached. i dowanna wake up with sore eyes on nxt tuesday morning. how how how how.
patrol outing was funny. the water snails thingy. the sea part rawks. though the water is pathetically dirty. the float rawks ! and the salt sucks. lol. so funny. last part we got buried. 4 sec4s tio buried. and stuck. damn funny lah think about it. aha.
and then the 'feng' song came into my head again. when i think about feng. i think abt yuyang. when i think abt yuyang. i would think about adriano tear-ing. when i think abt adriano tear-ingg.. how can u tell me not to be sad?
i dowan campus superstar to end. i really proud of all the campus super star peeps lah. the major change in yuyang. from the 'dao' and 'cool' guy, he has changed to the 'ahbeng trying to be friendly' guy. hees. and adriano. from the 'scared to have eye contact with audience' in the jia gei wo song. he sang it with so much emotion. but no eye contact with audience. somehow felt that he got too drifted away in the song. to the guy who know how to move the audience with his "my anata" and his so damn cute and cheecky smile. w00t. to the forget lyrics also can act cute trick. lols. he really rawks :) im proud of him already. but i would still be sad if he had to leave.
i think i dreamt about me see-ing adriano last night. i mean i did see him but that dream was lyke some what special. lol. maybe its i wanna see adriano wanna see until i dreamt that i saw him. lol. but that was the final part of the dream. begining i forget le.
i miss adriano already. it was only yesterday x=
Friday, March 10, 2006
233 days and couting. lols. 233/8 approx 30 days for 1 subj. ahha. crazy. i dowan take o levels le.
so got back ca1 results - disappointed but expected lah. to all those people who screwed up just dont care okay. i have concluded that this ca1 is an unfair judgement to our abilities. and this is not important. what matters its just the O's. ah. so jiayous everyone !
i decided to study business in singapore poly. i cant accept the life of JC and how cut-off points is getting lower and lower. i dowana stress myself up over A levels. i see more benefits in going to a polytechnic. i hate the new system of JC. only allow me to take one maths. surely i can Ace a humans lah. wellx. poly here i come !
sometimes rights. the harder something is in reach of you. one would tend to try harder to get that thing right. like newton's law. someone push hard. the other person must also push as hard to balance the forces mah. wellx.
im having muscle ache thanks to the newspaper cip thing. lol. and that is the place i found my PINK monkey. lalas. and took neos after that. saw so many people in the neos shop and i happen to see some gay stuffs which i aint supposed to see though. x=
the holidays is starting and i should be doing my homework. lol. which i say every holiday but no action seems to start yea.
I WANT SOME RAIN SOON. the weather is killing me. really. sighs sighs sighs.
i wish, i hope. when ?
hope i'll get to see adriano on monday ! yay.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
235 days and counting. lol. im crazy.
the art of being dao.
actually i duno how but i decided to attempt to blog on it and see what it will turn out to be like.
what i have to start learning now.
1.stop SMILING. its totally impossible somehow lah. im the type of people who anything also anyhow smile or laugh one and from wellx maybe soon. i shall learn to stop smiling already. i've decided that i shouldnt be that friendly anymore. daoness is an attitude and not many people can succeed in doing so.
2.dont talk to people. this is another one totally impossible thing lah. how often do u see me shut myself up at a corner? sighs. i shall attempt to tryy i guess. but when i really shut up everyone would prolly ask me if i am okay or not. sighs. maybe next time when u see me really shutting up. dont talk to me.
3.learn to isolate yourself. this is prolly the one i would be most success in. i wanna lock myself up in a room.
4.look away from people's eye when you walk so there wont be a EYE CONTACT.
kinda jus heard some stuffs i din really wanna hear. yea. memories. unforgettable but worth keeping? get out of me.
im lazy to blog. well.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
236 more days to o levels and counting. i think. the first paper is HCL. im scared. so is everyone.
Friday, March 03, 2006
wooah. my official 100th post. lols. [who cares?] ahh. it's just another normal day. maybe wellx. today my mood a lil down but wellx.
wait. waiting. waited. baaah. i hate and dread friday. wad rubbish PTC. hope my parents wont go. lols. later they ask the cher why my daugther l1r5 can suddenly shoot so high like rocket like that. den later the comments would be. she has been falling asleep in class [ NOT ON PURPOSE ] i strive to pay attention in class everyday. and she has been doodling. lols. and doing other subjects homework during lesson time especiall maths. and she reads books especially chinese book in the middle of no where. blah. but i doubt my parents would go though. im having maths tuition. its a friday after all. daah.
what is the big deal with dota man? so many girls are complaining that guys are too hook to dota that they simply go online and change their status to busy and they prolly reply you only once or twice throughout the whole time u online or they dont reply at all. i have more then 4 such people in my contact list. lols. so i shall analyze wad is dota for everyone who doest know.
Defence Of The Ancient. [DOTA]
this game started let's say. i rmb playing it 2 year ago in 2004. so it must have been pretty long. had many version and the lastime i played was 6.10. i played as it evolved from 5.84 to 6.10. don't ask me why i dont play well in dota cause. i have some how accepted the facts that genes is an important factor. if you are good in it you are. if u just dont have the talent u just dont have it. lols. anyway, DOTA is a custom game of WARCRAFT 3 which came out in 2002 and has been a very very popular game since then. and when i say popular it really is lahs. hmms. maybe not as popular as Counter Strike lah. okay so back to the game. what it is? it is normally a 5 v 5 game in which seperated into two teams, scourge and sentinal. the trees and the undeads. lol. den they choose hero. den they start fighting. den fight fight. see who can get the most kills. so its like. teamwork is very importang lah. and we must push push push and try to push into other people's base and destroy all their buildings lah. ya den i duno why. i have this feeling the sentinal always win. hmms. it is a biased opinion lah so wellx. through this game. it is really a game where jian4-ness is a SKILL. if u backstab people in the game. nobody would say u are evil. lols. except me lah. i scold the backstabber every single time i get whacked. lols. hmms. playing with me is horrible lah. eh btw it is backstab ur enemies. not ur frens. don get mistaken. teamwork is still the overall importance okay. wellx. i do type alot and alot and wellx. but i don exactly used those rude languages most ppl use. ya den the heroes dat u control have skills lah. den they have either strength, agility or intelligence blah blah. i have to admit dat i din noe all these till.. not to long ago. end of last year. ahhh. lol den u must know how to use the best of the hero like how to focus lah. diff people got diff way of playing. it's like i play the character TINY the stone GIANT. those are the weird names. his strength is damn good. my bro says that i should train all my might on his strength so he can whack people. whereas another person says that since he so strong liao should train his agility. okay. i think every one now has question marks. lols. blaah.
so back to the game. #1. WHY IS IT ADDICTIVE? wellx. i don normally play it straight for the whole half a day but my bro simply plays it everyday. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY. i woke up at 5am one morning to use the toilet. HE WAS PLAYING DOTA. every saturday morning as far as i can rmb, HE IS ALWAYS PLAYING DOTA. he plays it every night. almost without fail. WHY? i dont see the joy in killing people. but i noe the sadness in dying and ur team mates simply just.. eh wait. somehow there is a tingling of happiness when a noob like me. kills someone lah. its a miracle for ME lah. cause normally i get whacked before people whack me so i play dota is very hum one. its just feel happy lah. then when someone get alot of kill. u will hear like.. "the senital are OWNNING" den it wld be at the screen den u will feel like woaaah. lols. den when the person duno got how many kills liao will have.. "wiiiiiiicked stick!" before that it was "dominating.." ahhh. fun fun fun ! maybe guys find the joy in owning people.
after playing dota for pretty long time and still not improving. i have seen the diff types of people who play. firstly. there are people who would ask u to leave a game if u simply suck. baaaH. on the other hand, there would be people to guide u along. but really. the games i really enjoy is those with very good teamwork. there must be a good leader lah in a game. and good team mates who warns people about back stabber. and den. it's fun for 3 heroes chasing after 1 hero in a game. great teamwork there. really. den there are stuffs like "gj"[good job] or "nice one" blah blah blah to motivate u when u kill someone. woooah. and then good team mates cooperate. they SHARE ITEMS. they TRUST EACH OTHER. and guess what? most of the time u play with the people is total strangers de lah. but it is sort of like a universal game lah. in people get along and trust each other. so its so coooooL.
okay next i shall go on to CLANS. it is sort of a group of people who get together to play lah. like a group of friends. they train to play against other clans. and really teamwork here lah. cause u will learn one another's weakness strong points blah blah. and very cooperative here. but once again. end of the day it is still a game. it's hard to bring this teamwork to our daily life. sighs.
once again. this game has its bad points too. people like me. always remain a noob its really not because that i really suck or what lah. this game has developed into a "NO NOOB PLACE" most ppl simply discriminate people lyke me. and seriously. when did h0neystars sounded like a guy's username. WHEN WHEN WHEN. TELL ME WHEN MAN. really make me realised guys are really dumb. but seriously. hint to a girl playing online gaming. seriously its not good to reveal that u are a girl online. just act on like u are a guy no matter how gay it is. not good to say that u are a girl. even if i think u very pro or own. still say u girl is really like. wellx. dono how to say. ask other guys to explain. lols. their pride would be shattered nia. lols. blah i no idea wad i talking about.
anyways. i quit dota since end of jan after CNY. and wellx. hopefully i'll never get back to it ever again. okay maybe nort. maybe i play once in a while. i really hope i would improve lah. but STUDIES ARE MORE IMPORTANT AND THE O LEVELS ARE COMING WHICH MAKES EVERYTHING SOUNDS WORSE DEN FREAKY.
im tired. say bye to my 100th entry. baah.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
this is my 99th entry. guess my 100th entry would be on friday nights. ha. actually abit dumb lah. 100th entry so what? got people read meh. blah. actually people read don read no big deal lah. the thing is that it's for me to remember my stuffs yea. lols. so its for ME. lol. selfish girl xD
so many things have happen yea.
I. Manchester United won carling cup. 4-0. direct trash rights against wigan. wellx. this match alot of things happen lah. firstly, van nisteroyl din play which is quite sad lah. would have own more in the 1st half. i went to sleep after 1st half so pretty sad lah cause i heard something great about ronaldo happen in the 2nd half. which i didnt watch which makes me so jealous the next day ! hmMs. wellx. no fate x= lols. fate says i shouldnt get to see it. mmm. den the next thing was the "for u smudge" shirt they wore. it's like so good team spirit? wonder who's suggestion it was. wellx. alan smith got injured quite badly against the liverpool match few weeks back. den they wore the shirt like everyone wore lah. den so sad that he is missing. with alan smith in the match it's always more exciting. anyway i this year also get to know manchester united more. know how good park is. still waiting for his glorious first goal. he had assisted so much le.
II. I have new idol ! i know abit betrayal lah but he is really good. thiery henry xD arsenal's captain and a very good player nia. know how to dribble pass 3 def and score !! i hope he doesnt go over to italian league. really. and wow. real wanna buy henry over and exchange for ronaldo? lols. henry should remain faithful to arsenal and not go ! if henry really goes. my dear arsenal. i duno where u would be. lols.
III. Chelsea wanna buy shevchenko for FIFTY MILLION? crazy? he's a good player. don really mind see-ing playing on EPL cause pathetic ESPN only have epl matches most of the time. shevchenko really rawks lah. he is so so so so good. lols. i think i have a feeling i spelt their names wrongly. hmms. correct me if anyone can yea. i think man utd should buy a new defender. they need one. hmms. anyway is leeds utd back up? i hope they are. they are really good yea. or once good. hmms.
IV. Okay. enough about shocking soccer. hees. suddenly my mind is blank. hmms. got the i-weekly liaos. i think everyone is buying it. lols. sometimes really peifu those people lah. its like, they really get emotionally hurt at times. i hear so many people critising certain people den i think that they hear is also quite sad one lah. den i read liao also feeling quite sad de. hmms. so i guess. wellx. everyone try not to shatter those hopefuls hearts k. dont say anything bad about anyone. keep it to urself or dont even have that thought at all. it's not easy to be them =x
V. Edison Chen is getting into me. lols. damn. why? but jay chou will always be #1. i really hope he wont get trouble with the police. cant they enjoy his wonderful music more den see-ing him suffering in army? maybe he'll make it be in army, you'll never know. lols. imagine him become OFFICER CHOU. lols. okay it sounded terrible x= mms.
VI. I am lacking the motivation to study. the number 16 haunts me. and i duno why i aint not studying? i chose comp over my work just now. lols. i stare at my work. walk down and on the comp. waha. SLACKER. how how. how can a slacker motivate a slacker. x=
VII. How come there are some things I wanna do but never can do. feel very pathetic when aims are not met. wellx. aims aims aims and aims. they are really reachable. maybe i need to jump higher. blaaah. im bored. bored bored bored. i wanna get done with it !! screams screams..
blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah. there's a thousand words that i could say. maybe those words just couldnt pattern out wellx. daah.
