Monday, October 17, 2005
Eyy. It's been so long isn't it? okay crap. prolly no one reading cause apparently not much people know that i've change my linkk. for wad reason? no idea. sigh.
Okay i gotta admit that part of me havent been in the right mind since the exams came. no it was before it came. ahhh. wadsup with me man. seriously i've changed too much over this year and i cant believe that i have survived 10 months 17 days 10 hours and 55 mins this year as a sec3 and as a fifteen year old girl. hack about my birthDAY.
I still can't believe how fast time flies i mean i can even remember the first time i step into p5 and yea it was one of the big change la. i was only 11 den and went into a totally new environment. somehow with strangers you'll tend to mix around more and hit off more well den someone u already know. weird?
i promised a new template soon okayy? or prolly use back some of my old ones which i find totally rawks xDD
so wassup with my life? mmm. still wondering though. it's just the sometimes i wake up and realise that something's missing but somehow don't seem to know what's that something. so i'll keep searching for it =) till then maybe;;
so how much confidence i have for my exams? on a scale of 1 to 10 i would say 3. this exams is the one i had the most time to study for and also the one which i watched the most tv. hello ! i can just stay 3 hrs in front of the tv when next day was exam already. and im nort the type who can study in front of the tv. i did 10 multiple choice questions for chem in an hour show. wow. so productive la. okay crap. okay since the exams is over i shall prepare myself into the next stage which could be more terror but i guess i cant really tell myself i've done my best right? sighh. and with the O level CHINESE coming its kinda scary cause its only exactly 2 weeks away and wow. i dont think i've started on it. *screams screams*
maybe one thing i've learn through this year is i really learn how to treasure the stuffs around me and i've kinda realised that everything has a purpose. If there aint a purpose, it wont even be there. Everything in life has a purpose and a meaning towards it and its only if we bothered to take the step in searching for it. So don't give up yet, keep searching.
just take it as example if you got 0 for some particular test or exam. let that ZERO be a motivation to do better. why let it be a fear towards u? there is always two sides to a coin. even if the coin's dull you can always take the first step and start polishing it. nothing's impossible right?
*somehow i wish i could get all these logic in my head*
yea and maybe i don practice what i say =(
i find it's really important to search for the second solution to life. who say life only has a road? life is full of choices and you just got to create your own choices and strive for it. why be scared?
okay let's get the fact right. we all die one day. it's only the matter of dying now or later. Life is a GAME which we could never get out alive? agrees? so why be scared of anything? It's a matter of now or later aint it?
maybe i have been watching too much drama alreadyy. wellx. what can i woman do in her free time? let's list the choices: shopping, gossiping, chatting, watching tv, get crazy over idols, make-up cum dressing-up.. what other choices are there? ha. agree? life is b-o-r-i-n-g *yawns*yawns* mmm. somehow another thing that struck me. suicide is the WORSE solution outt. how many people each minute are trying to fight for their life? those suffering from deadly diseases: SARS, AIDS, cancer, kidney failure on and on. so so so many people striving and fighting for survival yet one would rather choose to end his or her life? life is precious to a certain extent u see. life is a beauty. it is a gift blessed upon your soul. mmm. suddenly another struck me. murder is the worse thing one could ever done. what lies beneath a murderer--- the guilt, the pain and the hurt[from the deceased family members and friends AND the murderer's family and friends] we are all human beings living on planet earth and over the years we have learn to develop feelings for each other and these feelings are not those which could be forgotten over night. wE all care. this is the blessing of being a human.
maybe all these i say here are crapp but well, if it do struck any of yr attention and really, feel free to comment. If you wanna say thanks cause you're enlighten? I'll say you're welcome =)
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Monday, October 17, 2005
