Tuesday, February 01, 2005
haish. i mean.. why everyone moody = quarrels? whyy. i duno wad is life man. why? reaching home so late everynight. in class cnt concentrate. totally dunno log. i dunno a maths. cher teach finnish liaox i still dunno. now my bro send his gf home surely can help mi lorx.he come home surely nort at 12 one lorx. yesterdae 11.30 den come home tell me physics. and i still think i gonna fail physics. vectors and scalars can get WRONG. den forget the last part the question DIN answer. am i pro or WAD. why is life LIDDAT. i pissed off liaox can. PISSED off. very- cnt wait for cny to be over.. its just abit tired liaox. tired of all the scolding i getting. tired of thinking and worrying that i have no time to study. im tired.. yi jing lei le.. i really dowanna study animore. i don think i can handle it.. all the crap about nrot failing tests. all that. what do i get? dimenticato sorriso. if im rite it means forgotten smile in dono wadeva language. //wang ji le xiao rong. Verse 2: Chorus: wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wei wei xiao Repeat Verse 2, *, first part of Chorus, whole Chorus //im tired. stop. today was such a long long long day.. duno wad to do tmr. maths n china test nxt week. surely i survive. //someone save me.. cny is boring mann. same stuffs each year? wellx. money also same. luffs. plan to finish at least 70 q of maths by todae. did think 20 le ba. or lesser. mugggg. now reading whether anastasia real anot. haa. okay. half real half fake. ehhh. i just started dota lyke 3 days ago. need to warm up lorx. stop blaming me. anyone u all won or lost? eeey. duno why place so long wc still so lousy. yay. tmr go bai nian with 2e peeps. duno happy or sad.. 2e. ex-2e. hmm. wish for all the best i guez. will bring camera as far as i rmb?? todae was crazy. rushed to pwae den somerset. eeey. lolx. hmmm. i developed photos le!!! okay that was ABIT mad. well. cnt write much. tata~ apples too? well.. ``eGGs.. -type dat wae so xinqu.. next week gort chem, phys n maths test? waitt, nort sure if its maths.. well. den nxt week gort SS den gort wad bio.. i wanna cry le.. 'iXora rAwks k.. leT me draw so muCH with my Lousy arT.. lolx. `wAs my hair n faCe reaLLy tHat bad.. weLL.. muscLe acheinG.. someone save me.. tuition at 930.. SObS. picking egg shells was so funn. scrubbing the drain with rocks was fUnN-eR. yea. scrub until throw the rockk. mmmz. eGGs rawks lorx. rawk till i dowanna eAt it le.. lolx. if i wan i just licK myseLf.. luFFs~ ``baThe for THIRTY mins.. so rawk can.. i sit dere and bathe and scrubb. luffs~ i jus realised still gort abit mint smell in mE.. from the colGATE? well.. im tired.. scared i sleep cannort wake up.. shyt la. my fone is stained.. i need a new cover anywae.. well. Tata~ shuo bu shang wei shen me wo bian de hen zhu dong he bian de feng zai chui zhe tou fa piao dong Chorus: wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai lurve dis songgg. chem test!! i dowanna dieee. i need to sleep soon.. ppl gone.. happy thinking/founder's day nice time standing in the hall.. so so so short until i havent finish admiring the surrounding yett. chem test tmr.. does it seemed to u that i have studied when i reach home at 6.50 and went for tuition from 7.30 to 9.30 and watch tv till 10 and now online.. well.. life is lyke a bottle of red and blue sand being mixed up togther.. no matter how much u tried to mix these sand particles together, both wont become purple, cause they are solid and solid cannort dissolve in one another or something liddat.. this is my life now.. how im feeling- life is also lyke a troop of soldiers being lost in a jungle and somehow, u gort a way from the group. and you are all alone. this is my life now too. dark, alone. why so screwed up.. what did i do.. i need a miracle.. nice song below, It's been two days and I'm missin' you already Think about the nights when I'm lyin' in your bed Chorus Verse 2 So just come back and I'll tell you how I feel (Chorus) I think, I'm fallin' in love Bridge: (Chorus) I think, I'm fallin' in love ta ku zhe dui wo shuo tong hua li dou shi pian ren de.. Tong Hua # * Repeat # and * wo yao bian cheng tong hua li wo hui bian cheng tong hua li yi qi xie wo men de jie ju if only blue and red sand could mixxx into purple which is impossible.. or even black and white can mixxx. if only.. had lyke no moood to eat muchh todaee.. dunno whyy. kinda mooooody? knowing the reason but refusing to accept it.. life is like that.. wellx. wishh me all e best for everything. get me the screwdriver.. wowxx. did anyone see my socks today?? WAS I WEARING ANKLE socks? WAS I? i dunno if she's blind or wad mine is nort ANKLE at all.. harloe please lorxx. its totally nort ankle socks.. think i get 1 demerit point liaox.. its lyke its HIGH lorx.. see me bu shuang den say la.. ask me pull up my socks den i nort wearing ankle den u still tick my name. i damn buay song liaox.. cooling down... yesterdae told jiee most of the things that happen la den its lyke.. quite sadd la.. nort supposed to tell her who den it jus slipped ouuuuut of mee. guess its no use for me pinting for dat hoppe or wish larx.. it wun happpenx. it was so so so so shortt. impossible.. sumhow feel lyke cutting my brain into half.. i duno whyy. its my brain which started all these thinking n wishinggx. and now its gonna be my brain dat's gonna end it.. seriouslyx. why make wishesx when its nort gonna happen. why think of the future when u cnt even control the present. whyx. it was me who started this and me who is gonna end it.. already tried to avoid.. lyke i said it was tried. whyy. stop ap-ing and i will to. i hope. avoid better den ignore. wad if i don even have the courage to avoidd. crapp. pure- i actually ran for pe today. lolx. this is the song lyrics for my bloggg de song lorx.. dang ni kan zhe wo O di yi ci wo shuo ai ni de shi hou gan jue ni shu yu wo, gan jue ni de yan mo went sch myself todae.. the buss so freakkk cold den gort another AH girl in front of me dunno who larx.. but shld be sec3 i guess.. so cold lorx.. den i hugging my baggx. den later reach sch.. haish.. stooopid pe on thursdae.. make my leg ache ache ache! so later go class nobodi.. den so darkk. dark dark! hmmx. den later go 3k find jason. i knew he wld be in class can. den he say he want to sleep.. -_- den later huiyi come den geraldine come.. den liddat lorx.. den assembly den freakkk. dowaana talk about it larx.. mrs lim nort dat bad aft all la.. blanko all those ppl she ticked.. wellx. she had her reasons too.. so we had a longg assembly with my most hated speaker for devotion.. blab blab blab blab.. blab sumore lorx. den later go bacc to class. phys.. den hear hear hear sleep sleep sleep.. den later was humans.. history.. still thinking if i shld change my electives anort.. but its lyke.. i both also want how? i wan take 9 subjects which is totally impossible.. den i also want take 3 sciences!! haish.. so confusing one.. duno larx. guess just remain den screw up in o levels lorx.. but i score better in geog.. if nort for the stooopid sa2 which i gort a freaking 65, i wld be in 3k with the other 2e geog ppl.. but 3h also good one la =) den later was CME.. okay i gort a wad social cohesion wordd.. surely my vocab damn good lehhx.. paiseh larx.. den damn funneh lorxx. den later was chem labb.. whee. okay crapp.. i din do certain stuffs den end up copyin answers.. lazy kia is lazy la.. den later recess.. i ate wan tan mee agn!! the uncle recognize me liaox lorx.. lolx.. loyal supporter.. as i step down into the canteen realised how long i din go down with my frens during recess le.. den later gort mathss.. den blahxx lorx.. den later guides! it was dumbb trying to stuff my PE tee into my skirt pockett.. eeeey!! but i still did it x= dunno todae is feel a sense of achievement or wad ba.. its lyke.. pT at 2+ when the sun was just shining brightly in the clear blue sky.. at the outdoor basketball court.. and we did PT in the SUN!! w00tx! tAn!! haa.. quite cool la.. except that my palms were redd and my whole face became red and red and redd.. and rylz still teasing me abt last week when the redness was the lipstickk. okay.. the worse part of the freaaaaking whole thingg is my knEE!! right knee.. i donno wad happen its lyke duno doing wad set den suddenly my knee damn pain.. and the pain is really piercing painn. den in the end i din do the half squats.. den its lyke now still pain?? jus now i still down dere try try.. den still pain and its really splitting.. sob sob.. a guide must have strong endurance level k! den later did our running den duckwalkk. was so really damn tired liaox.. sweat can drip into my eyes and come out as tears!! lolx. later i was in the ORANGE group okay.. so fuNNEH can.. they give us 15mins.. so we slowly walk around looking for EXOTIC flowers.. IXORA supposed to have only 4 petals and its ORANGE!! nort red! lolx.. but nvm, its shows ixora can ADAPT to changes!! haa. den later gort the feeling+ moulding parrt.. haa.. omg omg omg!! later was DRILL.. hmmz.. seriously i think our drill todae quite cool.. hmmz. den now i muscleache all over ymy! hmmz.. the danceworks dance rawks!! evelyn n yingqi u rawK! i hopee de cheer and collarge will turn out okay.. pearl u rawk too for that cheer!! wellx. den later had to went home cause gort tuition.. i surely at tuition not sleeping one worxx.. okok. must stop my sacarsm.. kkz. i understood. no more surely. no more can's. these whole week is really dao week x= sob i noe but den i also dunno why.. one of the most extreme days i ever felt this week.. one moment i can be still happy and the next its lyke.. suddenly everyhing sad comess.. here's a little storyy. once upon a tyme in maybe fairyland when she once believed everything had a happy ending.. where bees and butterflies sang to the joynous everyday. and one day she finally noticed someone in her neighbourhood. someone was there all along but she just din noticed.. and when one dat she finally did, it just came. she din really notice it much but it came byy. it jus swooop past fast, and not leaving footsteps at all cause the pace has slowed downn. in fact it din move at all. though the tyme was short but sumhow she knew it was gonna last, however nothing has happen. and she's still waiting. the power of the mind is that it can kills just as much as it functions. and the power of accepting reality kills as much too. i hate tests! waste my brain cells too! the shadowwwwww still reamains--- somehow.
Thursday, Feb. 03, 2005
haishhhh. dunno why these few daes life so depressing.. and the worse part is im getting moody. and everyone ard me is moody too? the worse part is i even have depressing friends. i dunno why.. why secTHREE is liddat? why.. why everyone liddat?
Friday, Feb. 04, 2005
Verse 1:
zen me yin cang wo de bei shang
shi qu ni de di fang
ni de fa xiang san de cong mang
wo yi jing gen bu shang
bi shang yan jing hai neng kan jian
ni li qu de hen ji
zai yue guang xia yi zhi zhao xun
na xiang nian de shen ying
*ru guo shuo fen shou shi ku tong de qi dian
na zai zhong dian zhi qian wo yuan yi zai ai yi bian
xiang yao dui ni shuo de bu gan shuo de ai
hui bu hui you ren ke yi ming bai
wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wang ji ni
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
xiang zhe na yi tian hui you ren dai ti
rang wo bu zai xiang nian ni
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
you xiang le yi bian ni wen rou de lian
zai wo wang ji zhi qian
xin li de yan lei mo hu le shi xian
ni yi kuai kan bu jian
Sunday, Feb. 06, 2005
well.. gonna lyke lock my blog liaox.. certain things really cnt let people know or people will misunderstand certain things? my friendship life kinda screwed noww. friendship is lyke fighting a war in a battlefield. sometimes without any warning u can just lose a friend. its just all like that. its lyke.
ME is ME. i mean yea. i know im a lil tomboi. i grew up in a family with 2 brothers. partially influenced? played soccer when i was young. supported manchester united when i was p5. i din lyke wearing skirts from p5 onwards. din wore any except for sch and guides skirt. i mean its ME la. playing CS when i was p4. warcraft 2 when p3 or duno when.. starcraft in p5. heros three might and magic. i dunno why some people see me so differently? i don really dress up when i go out. den in sec1 started playing basketball.. den drift away from soccer but still supports manchester united. i mean, does it really matters? its ME? im don think im b-chy i mean i don really go around gossiping lyke most people at my age now? i don really bother about clothes and stuffs yet? i dont make up. i have no piercings. i dont really lyke dress up find nice clothes to wear when i go out.. and blahx. den why say so much?
i dunno wad the hell is wrong but i am born like that? maybe time will change me but i am still ME. whyy?
d0nt even know where i belong.. one girl who lives in her dreams. one girl who watched too many fairytales only realising that they are dumb stories people create to make small children believe in their happy ending. the happy ending which never really happen or existed. im the girl who listen to sad songs to make myself feel sad. i cannot control my tears as much as i can control my laughter. tell me to stop crying and i will cry even more. once i start laughing i can laugh for half and hour none stop. i sleep each night hoping i would dream and wake up each night wishing i didnt have said that as i got an nightmare instead.. sometimes people might say stuffs that hurt but i always put on a brave front. i am afraid to cry in front of others. when i really cry it means im really sad and stop questioning me or commenting me and saying stuffs like so big still cry. i will cry even more. maybe letting me just cry is the best solution out. i believe in faith and hope. sometimes no matter how bad the situation is.. i always offer people advices but never bother to use them cause i never knew how to. can counsel almost everyone except myself. depressionism has became common within me which kinda suck. i dont believe in love at first sight and don think i will believe. most important thing of my other half in the future is that he must be able to know what to do when im having mood swings and being able to make me laugh, even when im crying. dont really lyke posers. i just like it the way it is. i hate people lying, even if there is a need to, i prefer the truth, thou it hurts more. however, i somehow keep lying to myself. i lie to myself to make myself happy. i like stars and i always like stars. i believe in making wishes but never believed it came true and when it did, i think it was only just a miracle or coincidence.
Wednesday, Feb. 09, 2005
cny le.
woke up, went sch, dance pract, real thing, finale, took photos, change, went bugis with clara and was so AA, tried to remove the giltter, end up scratching my whole armmm, went home, play comp, dinner, piano, comp, gonna sleep soon? or maybe even mugg.
Friday, Feb. 11, 2005
so much difficulty to blog sia.. hmm. nort really happy with bio and history test ba.. can do quite alort better? well. chem test was okay. but guess the paper was ez??
Friday, Feb. 18, 2005
`` i am NORT gonna eat eggs for ONE week at least.
` aWW man i LurvE e gReeN starcH.. s0 cooL.. tHx to mY briLLiant pAint of FloreCent PinK gReeN n yeLLow.. w00tz~
eGG aLways kAna kope.. thInk i onLy uSe 4 onLy.. t0 maKe scraMble eGG..
ruo ai shang yi ge ren shen me dou hui zhi de qu zuo
wo xiang da sheng xuan bu dui ni yi yi bu she
lian ge bi ling ju dou cai dao wo xian zai de gan shou
qian zhe ni de shou yi zhen mo ming gan dong
wo xiang dai ni hui wo de wai po jia
yi qi kan zhe ri luo
yi zhi dao wo men dou shui zhao
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai
ai neng bu neng gou yong yuan dan chun mei you bei ai
wo xiang dai ni qi dan che
wo xiang he ni kan bang qiu
xiang zhe yang mei dan you
chang zhe ge yi zhi zou
ai ke bu ke yi jian jian dan dan mei you shang hai
ni kao zhe wo de jian bang
ni zai wo xiong kou shui zhao
xiang zhe yang de sheng huo
wo ai ni ni ai wo
xiang~~ jian! jian! dan! dan! ai!~~~~~
xiang~~ jian! jian! dan! dan! ai!~~~~~
Sunday, Feb. 20, 2005
mmmz. its 2am. me nort sleeping.. jie nort sleeping.. sob sob. she shimian. i asking bro physics. bro came home 12+. Phys test mondae. mr ONG. what momentumn.. good cher but we all don understand.. contridicting siaa.
Tuesday, Feb. 22, 2005
hiyya..
Never really thought you could mean
So much in such a little time
With my chest resting your head
Now that you're gone I'm here to stay
I think I'm fallin' down. Down down down
With a bad case of love. Love love love
I think I'm falling for you. You you you
I think, I'm falling in love
When you come back all I wanna do is hold you
Have a blast even though there's nothing to do
Hold you close and look you in the eyes
Never knew how easy you could steal
My heart I miss you come home soon
I think, I'm fallin' in love
Cause I know that you won't be home when I call you
You're in England now, I hope that you'll be home soon
Cause I know that you won't be there when I call you, NOW
(slow) I think, I'm fallin' in love
Wednesday, Feb. 23, 2005
tong hua is nice..
Michael Wong (Wang Guang Liang)
wang le you duo jiu
zai mei ting dao ni
dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi
wo xiang le hen jiu
wo kai shi huang le
shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me
ni ku zhao dui wo shuo
tong hua li du shi pian ren de
wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi
ye xu ni bu hui dong
cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou
wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le
wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xWednesday, Feb. 23, 2005
in wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
luv this songg.. fairytales- wellx. don really wanna talk about it.. bring bacc unwanted memoriess. of watching anastasia.. x_x
im screwing up everything.
gogo.
Thursday, Feb. 24, 2005
wellx. today was a crappy day cause im having a crappy mood. which isnt a good thing.. i came to school all so happy. everyday is a new beginning.. the first worst thingg dat can happen to me is -----------
wo mei you kai kou yi bei ni cai tou
hai shi mei ba wo
hai shi mei you fu he ni de yao qiu
shi wo zi ji xiang de tai duo
hai shi ni ye zai shan duo
ru guo zhen de xuan ze shi wo
wo gu qi yong qi qu jie shou
bu zhi bu jue rang shi xian kai shi shan shuo
hu xi nan guo xin bu ting de chan dou
O di yi ci wo qian qi ni de shuang shou
shi qu fang xiang bu zhi gai wang na er zou
na shi yi qi xiang ai de li you
na shi yi qi si shou
O di yi ci wen ni sheng sheng de jiu wo
xiang yao qing xing que qong hun le tou
O di yi ci ni tang zai wo de xiong kou
24 xiao shi mei you fen kai guo
na shi di yi ci zhi dao tian chang di jiu
di yi ci jiu jue ding, jue bu hui cuo
sad sad sad sad sad song.
Friday, Feb. 25, 2005
hmmmx.. feeling so lost without msn.. i cnt sign in.. wellx. today is a long long long dae..
